“Fire!”
A blazing ball of light shot out from the end of Aqua’s Keyblade, missing the Neoshadow by mere inches as it dove to the side and renewed its assault. Flipping backward through the air, she landed catlike and sprung forward, summoning a barrier around herself. The Neoshadow went flying, stunned, but it was back on its feet in an instant with three more at its side. Behind her, she knew there were more emerging from the darkness. There always were.
Will this never end?!
As she cartwheeled aside to narrowly avoid an attack, she already knew the answer to her question. No, this wouldn’t end. So long as she remained in the Realm of Darkness, her life would be a constant battle against these creatures. The Heartless only had two objectives: to devour her heart, or to tear her to pieces and then devour her heart. The more she fought, the more they seemed to spawn. It hadn’t taken her long to realize that it was her heart that drew them to her, but she could do nothing about that. Sometimes she thought that she should just give up, let them take what they wanted and leave the rest of her to fade into the darkness, into blissful oblivion. Didn’t she deserve it after all this time, after all she’d suffered? Wouldn’t it be better than the meager existence she’d had for so long?
No. It wouldn’t be better. It would just be easier.
Aqua knew she didn’t deserve better—this was exactly what she deserved. Everything that had happened could have been different if she had done things differently. She didn’t have to end up here, and it was her own fault that she had. If only she had tried to help Terra instead of distrusting him, treating him like an enemy… If only she had tried harder to defeat Vanitas so that Ventus didn’t have to… If only she’d seen through Braig’s distractions… There were a million possibilities, things she could have done to change what had happened. Instead she had failed her two best friends, destroying their lives as well as her own. This was her punishment and she accepted it: to live in the past and battle ferociously for a future. Only this world had no concept of future. Time was practically nonexistent here, as the man at the dark margin had indicated. There was no future to look forward to because while years passed in the Realm of Light, Aqua hadn’t aged a day in this place. There was no future to anticipate. The past was full of regret. The present reigned supreme.
In the present, the Heartless were gaining ground. She had to be quick.
Letting her Keyblade hover in front of her, Aqua waved her hand and it went spinning ahead of her into the crowd, destroying some and sending others flying. But where one disappeared, three more took its place.
“Wind!” she cried as they pounced, her hair blowing in her face and slightly obscuring the sight of her enemies being lifted off their feet and thrown aside like dolls. It did little to truly injure them, but it gave her the small window of time she needed.
She drew all of her light, all of her strength forward. Images filled her head, images of her friends and her home. Training with Terra. Watching Ventus slowly regain his mental faculties and teaching him how to use the Keyblade. Laughing together as they watched the sun set. Sharing their Wayfinders on their last night beneath the same stars. They filled her head and her heart, clear as though they had happened only yesterday, and her heart welled up with emotion. Taking a deep breath, she slashed her Keyblade diagonally downward and the weapon changed, lengthening to twice its size and glowing with light. Like moths to a flame, the Heartless jumped forward. One more second…
Throwing her Keyblade into the air, Aqua held her hand above her head and the blade swirled in dizzying circles, destroying all of the Neoshadows as they plunged gracefully into its arc. As the light faded and the weapon, normal once more, returned to her hand, there was no trace of her foes left.
Breathing heavily, Aqua knew she would have to move on, but she was exhausted both by the battle and the emotional upheaval it had taken to win. She trudged to a nearby rock and collapsed onto it, sighing and staring at nothing in particular. Not that there was ever anything here to stare at anyway. The Realm of Darkness was dark, barren, and lonely.
At times like these, she missed the companionship she had shared with the old man at the dark margin not long ago. She hadn’t known how starved she was for it until she left him, but he had refused to come with her. His memories had still not come back, although she had been able to glean a little more from them with time, but he was adamant that if and when they did he would know what to do, and until then he would only hinder her. So, emboldened by his story of the two boys she had met so long ago and their efforts to keep the worlds safe all this time, she set out into the darkness once more.
But the old man wasn’t the only person whose path she crossed. Not long after she left him, she heard voices and silently went to investigate. What she found shocked her: a Heartless and a human. Derrick, the Heartless had called him, although it had no mouth to speak with. The two hadn’t been fighting, and when the small Shadow hugged him as best it could, Aqua’s heart had broken for them. They must have been friends, this pair, and one was now doomed to be a creature of the dark. So deep was her sadness and surprise that she barely noticed when Derrick, after a moment’s concentration, opened a portal filled with light and stepped through with his Heartless companion. When she finally came to her senses and made to follow, the portal closed before she could reach it. Her only escape route in years had disappeared with Derrick and the Shadow.
Try as she might, she could not get her master’s Keyblade to do the same. When her own inexplicably returned to her, it would not help either. The master’s had never felt right, not as comfortable and familiar, but it had been useful. Hers was more familiar in her hand and helped her in battle, but it would not open a portal to the outside no matter how much she wanted it. Thus she began her journey again, struggling to find anything else that may be hidden in this realm to help her.
Her mind worked through in words what she knew her actions must follow. She had to go. Where? The old man said there was a way out, but she hadn’t found one. Derrick had summoned a door, but she couldn’t find a way to do it on her own. He had been different, but she didn’t know how.
Wait…
Now that she thought about it again, it hadn’t been just Derrick who’d been different. His Keyblade did not give her the same feeling of light that hers, Terra’s, Ven’s, Mickey’s, and the master’s had. There had been darkness there, both in him and his Key. Was that the answer? Did she have to use darkness in order to escape it?
The darkness was evil, though. It devoured all, destroying the light and wreaking havoc and chaos on the worlds. Except Terra… He had used darkness in their exam and in the worlds he visited… He hadn’t been evil. At the end, he was just as worried about protecting her and Ven as he’d ever been, even with the darkness in his heart. The fact that there was too much allowed Xehanort to use him, but if she only allowed in a little…
I already have some, she thought suddenly. Master Eraqus had taught them that long ago. Everyone had darkness and light in their heart: Aqua, Terra, even Ventus before that side of him had been stripped away. The only ones who didn’t were the Princesses of Light. If she could only channel that…but how?
Anger. Rage. Hate. Jealousy. She’d seen them in her travels. She knew how they worked.
Pushing herself to her feet, Aqua allowed her armor to turn back into her normal attire, her face showing visible determination. She let everything wash over her, everything she’d been denying herself besides guilt. How dare Xehanort do this to them? He practically destroyed Ven’s heart all for some stupid experiment. And Ventus—he left home and she went through hell to bring him back only so that he could disobey her, go running off, and get hurt just like she told him she didn’t want him to do. Terra should have helped her bring him home, but instead he went off moping because the master was suspicious. The master… If he hadn’t told her to spy on Terra, this would never have happened. They would have worked together, figured something out. How could he, a man so dedicated to light, do so much to turn friends against one another? It was something Xehanort would do, had done, and had known Eraqus would do as well for the sake of the light.
The anger swelled in her chest and, for once, Aqua didn’t fight it. She let the hatred for Xehanort, the anger at her master and Terra, the rage at Ven’s actions, hatred of her own actions, everything burn inside her. When she felt she couldn’t take it anymore, she summoned her Keyblade and pointed it straight ahead of her, thinking of nothing but getting out of this place to tell them all what a mess they had made of things.
To her shock, the Keyblade vibrated in her hands a moment before light burst from the end and a portal opened before her. Aqua blinked in disbelief, and all of her angry thoughts vanished. Here was her way out, her way back to her friends! The fact that she had used the darkness to do it weighed heavily on her, but she shoved it aside for now and approached the portal. Light poured out of it and, smiling, she stepped into its warmth.
Aqua felt as though she were walking on a cloud, and then her feet hit solid ground. Reluctant to open her eyes, she took a deep breath. What if it hadn’t worked? What if she had gone to some other part of the Realm of Darkness? But there was sunlight pouring in through her eyelids. No, this wasn’t the same place, it couldn’t be. Slowly, she opened her eyes and let out a gasp of surprise.
“Radiant Garden?”
It was. Only the place was changed. Gone were the beautiful fountains and flora, in its place reconstruction equipment and debris. The castle in the distance had seen better days, scaffolding indicating that it was on its way back to its former state. She could only guess what had happened to the once beautiful world, but it was obvious the place was not the one she remembered. Dismissing her Keyblade, the portal vanished behind her and she stepped forward, hoping to find someone who could tell her what had happened here.