Umm.. don't kill yourself over this guy. When you say that no one would miss you, it makes me wonder. Do you have parents or friends, cause if you do I am sure they would miss you. It makes me angry when I see people that want to kill themselfs.
Anyway, as for the boy I think you should go to your local library and ask them if they have a phone book for his town/city. At my local library they have phone books. Anyway, if you know his name look it up in the phone book for his town/city and write it down. And then call him whenever you feel you are ready I guess.
Seriously, if you are going to kill yourself you may aswell try whatever you can to get this guy before you do kill yourself. -__-
Anyway, as for the boy I think you should go to your local library and ask them if they have a phone book for his town/city. At my local library they have phone books. Anyway, if you know his name look it up in the phone book for his town/city and write it down. And then call him whenever you feel you are ready I guess.
Seriously, if you are going to kill yourself you may aswell try whatever you can to get this guy before you do kill yourself. -__-