Alright! I've been having issues with guys for quite a long time, and I've finally figured out what the problem is! Something about me gives guys the impression that they can "play" me...they think that they can use me, cheat on me, string me along, tease me, and so on. And it's gotten me rather upset on many occasions...this has been going on for about two years, I figure. Here're some examples that I feel may help you understand where I'm coming from (the names aren't important, but I'll lose track of what I'm writing if I don't use them)(P.S. YOU CAN SKIP THIS IF YOU WANT. If you read the stuff that's below all this jazz, you should still be able to...reflect):
~Jake had a crush on my very pretty, best friend, Megan, for a long time...however, after much rejection, he found that having a crush on her wasn't fun anymore. What more convenient thing to do than go to her best friend, Chloe (me)? Unfortunately, I bought it, and started getting attatched to him, as well...However, after a few weeks, he decided that he didn't REALLY like Chloe, but instead, still liked Megan. I was quite upset.
~Alex and Chloe were good friends by the end of the school year, but Alex had to move up to New Jersey to live with his dad! Oh, no! Don't worry, though...Alex would be coming back to his mum's for breaks. Well, later that year, over winter break, he came back, and sought me and a few other people out. We hung out and he started flirting, so I flirted back. This lasted a few days...then, the day before Alex left, he kissed me and said that he really liked me. The next day, knowing that he was leaving, I decided to go to his house and try to clear things up. Turns out that he had a girlfriend, already! I was quite upset.
~After nine months of going out with me, Kyle decided that he wanted to break up. Afterall, Kyle was a freshman in college and I'm only a sophomore in high school. Naturally, I was more than just a bit devastated, but then things started to look up. A month later, he said that he had missed me and asked me if I would take him back. I asked him over and over again if he was sure, and he said that he was. But I guess he didn't mean it. See, he asked me out again at the end of break, knowing that he was leaving again and wouldn't have to deal with me. He yelled at me for calling him, a couple times...then, exactly one month later, he said that he wanted to break up with me. Despite the "I love you" that he had voiced, just the night before...I was quite upset.
~Jon, feeling bad for poor Chloe, being made to cry and feel like an idiot like that, decided that he would console her in the most flirtatious way possible. He put his arm around me and talked to me and all that jazz. After a few days, I began to try to pick his feelings apart, because I had just gotten out of a half-assed relationship and I wasn't jumping with joy to get into another. Well, I noticed that Jon had a crush on beautiful, irresistible Megan. However, Megan has been dating Scott for nearly two years, now. Yet again, I proved to just be a distraction for some poor sap who couldn't wrap his head around the idea that the girl he was madly in "love" with was already taken. He even admitted this to me...I was quite upset.
NOW, despite the fact that this is technically those silly boys' fault, I'm not gonna kid myself: something about ME has to change if this crap is gonna stop. Now, mind you, you don't truely know me, so you can't tell me what to stop doing...however, if you could give me some advice as to what I should start doing so that these blokes get these stupid ideas out of their heads when it comes to me, I would take it to heart and be very grateful. <3
~Jake had a crush on my very pretty, best friend, Megan, for a long time...however, after much rejection, he found that having a crush on her wasn't fun anymore. What more convenient thing to do than go to her best friend, Chloe (me)? Unfortunately, I bought it, and started getting attatched to him, as well...However, after a few weeks, he decided that he didn't REALLY like Chloe, but instead, still liked Megan. I was quite upset.
~Alex and Chloe were good friends by the end of the school year, but Alex had to move up to New Jersey to live with his dad! Oh, no! Don't worry, though...Alex would be coming back to his mum's for breaks. Well, later that year, over winter break, he came back, and sought me and a few other people out. We hung out and he started flirting, so I flirted back. This lasted a few days...then, the day before Alex left, he kissed me and said that he really liked me. The next day, knowing that he was leaving, I decided to go to his house and try to clear things up. Turns out that he had a girlfriend, already! I was quite upset.
~After nine months of going out with me, Kyle decided that he wanted to break up. Afterall, Kyle was a freshman in college and I'm only a sophomore in high school. Naturally, I was more than just a bit devastated, but then things started to look up. A month later, he said that he had missed me and asked me if I would take him back. I asked him over and over again if he was sure, and he said that he was. But I guess he didn't mean it. See, he asked me out again at the end of break, knowing that he was leaving again and wouldn't have to deal with me. He yelled at me for calling him, a couple times...then, exactly one month later, he said that he wanted to break up with me. Despite the "I love you" that he had voiced, just the night before...I was quite upset.
~Jon, feeling bad for poor Chloe, being made to cry and feel like an idiot like that, decided that he would console her in the most flirtatious way possible. He put his arm around me and talked to me and all that jazz. After a few days, I began to try to pick his feelings apart, because I had just gotten out of a half-assed relationship and I wasn't jumping with joy to get into another. Well, I noticed that Jon had a crush on beautiful, irresistible Megan. However, Megan has been dating Scott for nearly two years, now. Yet again, I proved to just be a distraction for some poor sap who couldn't wrap his head around the idea that the girl he was madly in "love" with was already taken. He even admitted this to me...I was quite upset.
NOW, despite the fact that this is technically those silly boys' fault, I'm not gonna kid myself: something about ME has to change if this crap is gonna stop. Now, mind you, you don't truely know me, so you can't tell me what to stop doing...however, if you could give me some advice as to what I should start doing so that these blokes get these stupid ideas out of their heads when it comes to me, I would take it to heart and be very grateful. <3
but if i have a chance with one something else destroys it for me(long long story)
