Sitting alone in the Chetau. Rest of the squad has important matters to do at the HQ, so I am alone finishing up a report. Annual meeting with Dr.Chiba who monitors the Quinx Squad`s Rc-levels is also coming up soon.
“I wonder if he has noticed it yet…?â€
As the stress about the upcoming monitor visit starts to take hold of me, I notice that I am rattling my fingers in a certain manner. For some reason it gives me a very nauseous feeling, but I am not sure why. There is something familiar with it.
…
I shake as I vomit in the bathroom. I remembered why that finger moment was familiar: it started after the island, after being trapped with him. I get up to wash my face with cold water, maybe it calms me down and washes away the horrible smell. As I splash water to my face and stare at the mirror directly in front of me, I freeze as I see that the reflection: it`s not me, instead it`s him!
“I told you we had similar eyes, the same look. Don`t try to deny it, Tooru.â€
He utter these words, both kakugans flashing red like blood that has been set on fire, smiling pleasantly. I smash the mirror with my fist, again, again, again and again… with that Torso is gone and the mirror is broken. Between the fractures I see my revolting face, sweaty, trying to gasp for air. Even my kakugan is active, acting as an everlasting reminder of my nature. With a weak voice I whisper to myself:
“I am no….â€
As the words come out I know they are not true, I stopped lying to myself long ago. I am murderer, a ghoul, someone who dosen`t deserve to live. I collapse to the floor, holding my head as I start to laugh.
“Does it feel like this to go mad?â€
“I wonder if he has noticed it yet…?â€
As the stress about the upcoming monitor visit starts to take hold of me, I notice that I am rattling my fingers in a certain manner. For some reason it gives me a very nauseous feeling, but I am not sure why. There is something familiar with it.
…
I shake as I vomit in the bathroom. I remembered why that finger moment was familiar: it started after the island, after being trapped with him. I get up to wash my face with cold water, maybe it calms me down and washes away the horrible smell. As I splash water to my face and stare at the mirror directly in front of me, I freeze as I see that the reflection: it`s not me, instead it`s him!
“I told you we had similar eyes, the same look. Don`t try to deny it, Tooru.â€
He utter these words, both kakugans flashing red like blood that has been set on fire, smiling pleasantly. I smash the mirror with my fist, again, again, again and again… with that Torso is gone and the mirror is broken. Between the fractures I see my revolting face, sweaty, trying to gasp for air. Even my kakugan is active, acting as an everlasting reminder of my nature. With a weak voice I whisper to myself:
“I am no….â€
As the words come out I know they are not true, I stopped lying to myself long ago. I am murderer, a ghoul, someone who dosen`t deserve to live. I collapse to the floor, holding my head as I start to laugh.
“Does it feel like this to go mad?â€