When all else fails!
- May 29, 2006
Your a girl, my bad. Anyway go with the tape thing(we mean on a cassete...right)and even though you are scared, would you rather face it or be hit for the rest of your life at home?
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Please read my first post before posting. I know it's kinda long but it'd help you understand more. Also dont give me any crap or other stuff like that please, I trust KHI that's why I'm asking YOU for help.
I've been stuggling so much lately with life, and I really dont know what to do. I'm tired/stressed/confused/sad and much more. Let me start with my biggest problem.
1. My mom:
Ever since I was little my mom been the greatest pain towards me. She would use to hit me for no reason, like looking in a shopping bag just because it is counted as being nosey. Though ever since then I've been trying to please her, so that maybe just maybe she'll start to like me. Now though she doesnt really hit me, but teases me and yells at me for no reason. She'll yell at me for the simplest of things, like if I drop a piece of paper on the floor, she'll say(here's something currently she's done): WHY THE HELL DID YOU JUST THROW THAT DAMN PIECE OF PAPER ON THE FLOOR!!!??? PICK IT THE HELL OFF THE FLOOR!!!
I really dont get it. Why does she treat me and my siblings this way. She'll be nice to other children. She'll say "Good Job, high five!!" or " That's really good!!-and simile-" to other children.
About a month ago, we met a new family. My mom kept going on telling me about how there daughter was so sweet, and so kind she is, and that she's had it so hard and I should be nice to her.
..............................I admit, I'm jealous and pissed off at that. She's only known that child like what 2 days and she's saying nice things about her and supporting her. She known me for 13 years. She didnt support me when my friend died or when I suffered depression. All she did was say "Suck it up."
So my question for help is, what can I do to please her? What am I doing wrong? and any other info would be good.
My second problem:
2. Stress and School:
I've been so stressed out with school lately. I havnt been able to sleep good at all. I'm trying to keep up with my grades and I've been failing lately. I use to get all A's and maybe a B but now I keep getting A's and B's and a C or 2. I dont know how to work it all out, and how to have fun anymore or just say "take a break." My friends have suggested "cutting myself" or "taking extra pills so that I get a quick high feeling and I'll be relieved of all my problems for that moment" or something new that I've heard about from school, is where you hang yourself( well not completely hang yourself where you die) but after a few seconds you let go and you feel a high feeling that will comfort you. I'm trying to really not go that way and try to find something else to help me.
So my question for help is: How can I relax more, how can I get better grades, what's a better way to get rid of the stress? Any other help would be nice.
and last problem:
About 3 years ago, I started to really feel depressed. I'd think about running away or suicide. I'm starting to feel that feeling again, and I dont want it to get outta control. My parents didnt help me at that time, but my friends kept helping me tell I felt...happy again, and trust me they stayed on me constantly. ( I was in Germany though at that time and I'm in America now) I dont want to take theropy(sp?), or take depression pills. My mom tells me it's a waste of time and money so she wouldnt help me anyway.
So my question for help is: What can I do to help my depression? What can I do to feel happy again? Any other info would be nice.
She was emotionally and physically abusive and she has the right to defend herself against abuse. BAM, right in the face. Problem solved.
Shit... that game where you hang yourself and get a quick high... just DON'T DO IT.
My friend died from that game. It's called many names, but we called it 'Fly High'. Basically, you put something round your neck so that you cut off your air, and blood to the head. Then, when you're about to pass out, you quickly release whatever it is and then the blood rushes into your head and you get quick high. That's it.
Well, my friend was home alone and he tried it by hanging himself from his closet with a belt. He wasn't able to get the belt off his neck in time, and he passed out. Then he couldn't breathe, and was found dead when his parents got home.
Don't do it. Don't.