LOL It's okay.
I abandoned ship because, after I'd made the FC, members kept getting into debates with Smile, and even though she was on the opposite team, I found myself agreeing with her a lot more than I was with my own members. Plus, an event in BBS made me have the final straw at Kairi and decided I wasn't a fan of her any longer. I'd planned to close the SoKai FC then and there, all the way back in March, but the club members begged me to stay and not close the place. So I stayed, reluctantly, and only became more and more embittered with SoKai. Finally, after finally having enough of it, I closed it out of the blue, so that no one could try to talk me out of it. And I decided to make a HC.
Hope that helps. ^_^