Thanks guys that really helped but Im starting to have another promblem. I want revenge aganist C.F. Im not crazy or anything but I keep going over this whole situation in my head and Im realizing that Im busting my ass over those two and both keep messing up. I mean you should have heard the way He said"Don't touch me.Don't touch me." At that point I realized he hated everything about me. Im trying so hard to keep all this inside but since he's acting like such a jerk maybe I should tell him all those secrets. There is so much going on in my life right now and Im so confused. My mom is starting to smoke again and thats the thing that killed her mother and my grandmother. I keep thinking about My father and how he's never been in my life. Im taking a standarized test in school everyday of the week and everyday i go to sleep at 11:00 and wake up at 5:00. My head hurts everyday i come home and then i have to do it all over again. I just turned 13 and It's really hard to deal with all this. It's like I can't breath. Oh and Im about to go to high school. Im scared so much. I really am crying now. LoL No one has to post after this if you don't want to but if you do I don't mind. I really just needed to vent all of these. Im sorry if this makes you deppresed. I dont mean for it to.
It is all your own guilt. You are beating your self up over someone else's misfortune . Revenge does not make sense. I understand you feel betrayed left out but you are not really involved with the problem of your friends at hand are you. I mean he just wants to be left alone because he is stressed out like you but wants time to himself . You should not be involved , you are doing so much yes, you should not be. Is that a real friend , you help and help and they do not even appreciate that ?
You are being used , and blamed.Turned against your friends because they are too immature and naive.
Any real friend would not put blame and pressure on you, you trying to help the 2 of them take on blame and responsibility that mature friends would not assume your responsibility .
Face it you are at an immature age , and your friends are not being at all mature.
These 2 are making you the answer all , tell all. Listen to all the nasty secrets she is now telling you and why? Because you are acting too responsible in the problems of their own, they have you to blame when things go wrong..see?
You are more mature so the girl is using you to try to communicate to her partner what she is too damn immature to communicate herself. So you get nasty little secrets and burdens that she knows will torment you, and you probably will tell...
AS for everything happening in your life, calm the hell down man. hhahah. It isnt that bad, life is all about relationships . Save yourself the pain of caring so much over your current relationship bothering you so much. I would not imagine that they are friends, or people you need to be involved with. High School is more drama Bs if you make it into that. So save yourself the trouble and learn to be more mature. A mature friend would not blame things on you as this fellow friend seems to be. Start maturing and noticing immaturity and the older you get the more easy it will be, its ok .
7 hours of sleep is good, just eat breakfast and be healthy As for your mother smoking, I would ask your mother "had grandmother had a choice to do life again do you really think she would have still ended it so soon by smoking ?"
Talk to her about it at any rate, but she wont listen to you unless you impress her.