Rena has a problem again and needs a solution. :< Unfortunately, this has been ongoing for months now and, earlier, I was about to be driven to the edge. It hasn't been this bad before, so I'm running onto here for help.
My dad LOVES to complain. He loves to complain about how sick he feels. He loves to complain about stuff relating to his career. But the one thing he loves to complain about most? I'm not sure if I can say this or not, but I'm saying it anyways:
He loves to complain about money. My mom works full-time. He works part-time. My mom works to pay the bills and my dad works on paying those bills with that money. He loves to complain about how much each thing costs, blahblahblah. But today? It was horrible. My mom and I were coming back from a day of riding on roller coasters [Though it wasn't nearly as good as last time. xD;;] and my dad called. All I figured out from that phonecall was 'Not good.' and my mom said it: 'Your father's complaining about money again.' UGH. I was basically saying 'Oh againnnnnnnn. Stupid head. Dx *kicks dad*' in my mind. But, I just said that my mom needed to relax, because she never does and I feel horrible about it, yet she just said that she said that she needed a second job in a REALLY angry tone. Definitely not good at that point.
We got home, my mom and dad argued for a few minutes while I unloaded bags before my dad was basically saying 'Whatever' and storming off into his office. He didn't come back downstairs and my mom was even standing outside his office door. The conflict was about his own money that he earned. You see, my dad has a job just for his movies. Yes, my dad is a director. And, frankly, I HATE IT. I HATE IT SO DAMN MUCH AND I'M SO DAMN SICK OF IT. I had a GIANT rant right here, but I'm not including it so you won't be sitting there for two hours, reading a rant. Anyways, my dad's earning money for his movies and I figured it out before I asked my mom about it. But, because of this, this stupidstupid conflict came up. They were complaining about what was happening with my dad's paycheck. In my opinion, I think it should be to support us, not his stupid movies. I know he loves them, but we've been on this stupid rollercoaster for years now and I would like to get off. I don't want my mom to deal with it either. :\ You see, on this stupid ride, we've been kicked out of our house, parts of our house have been messed up/destroyed [Like... someone angrily slamming something into the wall, and fake blood in the carpet], my mom and dad almost got a divorce because of these movies, and, definitely not the worst thing, we've had to plan/do things around what he wanted along with staying up extremely early because of him. People were in our house until 7 in the morning one time, and I stayed up til seven. Same with my parents.
Now, here's my problem, now that I've described the situation and how crappy this is: I was about to tell my mom that I was going to punch my dad in the face for all this crap. I KNOW how much he complains about money; it's not a secret to me. I KNOW how upset my mom gets about this; she tells me sometimes 'Your father will kill us if we get that', like she did earlier. But, no one knows how much I HATE my dad for all the crap he does. I really do love my dad. He's my dad, I love him, but he's not my best friend and he's making my mom upset because of his crap; I will NOT stand for my mom being upset. But I'm about to crack. Three, two, or even one more strikes and I'm going to punch my dad in the face, kick him, or do otherwise along the lines of punching and kicking. He's making me sick, and I just want to give him a bloody nose and RUN. Run out the door, run to my room, just plain RUN. He has no idea about how much I hate him, but I'm going to crack and punch him in the face.
Is there any possible way to tell my dad that I'm SICK of this movie crap, I'm SICK of him upsetting my mom, I'm SICK of everything revolving around him, and I'm SICK of all the other crap he drags on us? I'm a really shy person and I don't talk to my dad very much at all [Very rarely, actually], so it's hard to tell him in words for me. Should I start talking to him more or should I just send him a letter so I don't have to face him? I'm also scared of him, to a point, and I hate it when he yells and rants very much; I was shaking when he was in an incredibly foul mood once and was yelling at me to do something when I had school work to do. So, yup, this is a bit difficult.
Could someone give me some advice on this situation? I greatly appeciate anything and EVERYTHING you give to me. [And, don't you love long threads? xD;; At least I'm telling you everything in detail. :<]
My dad LOVES to complain. He loves to complain about how sick he feels. He loves to complain about stuff relating to his career. But the one thing he loves to complain about most? I'm not sure if I can say this or not, but I'm saying it anyways:
He loves to complain about money. My mom works full-time. He works part-time. My mom works to pay the bills and my dad works on paying those bills with that money. He loves to complain about how much each thing costs, blahblahblah. But today? It was horrible. My mom and I were coming back from a day of riding on roller coasters [Though it wasn't nearly as good as last time. xD;;] and my dad called. All I figured out from that phonecall was 'Not good.' and my mom said it: 'Your father's complaining about money again.' UGH. I was basically saying 'Oh againnnnnnnn. Stupid head. Dx *kicks dad*' in my mind. But, I just said that my mom needed to relax, because she never does and I feel horrible about it, yet she just said that she said that she needed a second job in a REALLY angry tone. Definitely not good at that point.
We got home, my mom and dad argued for a few minutes while I unloaded bags before my dad was basically saying 'Whatever' and storming off into his office. He didn't come back downstairs and my mom was even standing outside his office door. The conflict was about his own money that he earned. You see, my dad has a job just for his movies. Yes, my dad is a director. And, frankly, I HATE IT. I HATE IT SO DAMN MUCH AND I'M SO DAMN SICK OF IT. I had a GIANT rant right here, but I'm not including it so you won't be sitting there for two hours, reading a rant. Anyways, my dad's earning money for his movies and I figured it out before I asked my mom about it. But, because of this, this stupidstupid conflict came up. They were complaining about what was happening with my dad's paycheck. In my opinion, I think it should be to support us, not his stupid movies. I know he loves them, but we've been on this stupid rollercoaster for years now and I would like to get off. I don't want my mom to deal with it either. :\ You see, on this stupid ride, we've been kicked out of our house, parts of our house have been messed up/destroyed [Like... someone angrily slamming something into the wall, and fake blood in the carpet], my mom and dad almost got a divorce because of these movies, and, definitely not the worst thing, we've had to plan/do things around what he wanted along with staying up extremely early because of him. People were in our house until 7 in the morning one time, and I stayed up til seven. Same with my parents.
Now, here's my problem, now that I've described the situation and how crappy this is: I was about to tell my mom that I was going to punch my dad in the face for all this crap. I KNOW how much he complains about money; it's not a secret to me. I KNOW how upset my mom gets about this; she tells me sometimes 'Your father will kill us if we get that', like she did earlier. But, no one knows how much I HATE my dad for all the crap he does. I really do love my dad. He's my dad, I love him, but he's not my best friend and he's making my mom upset because of his crap; I will NOT stand for my mom being upset. But I'm about to crack. Three, two, or even one more strikes and I'm going to punch my dad in the face, kick him, or do otherwise along the lines of punching and kicking. He's making me sick, and I just want to give him a bloody nose and RUN. Run out the door, run to my room, just plain RUN. He has no idea about how much I hate him, but I'm going to crack and punch him in the face.
Is there any possible way to tell my dad that I'm SICK of this movie crap, I'm SICK of him upsetting my mom, I'm SICK of everything revolving around him, and I'm SICK of all the other crap he drags on us? I'm a really shy person and I don't talk to my dad very much at all [Very rarely, actually], so it's hard to tell him in words for me. Should I start talking to him more or should I just send him a letter so I don't have to face him? I'm also scared of him, to a point, and I hate it when he yells and rants very much; I was shaking when he was in an incredibly foul mood once and was yelling at me to do something when I had school work to do. So, yup, this is a bit difficult.
Could someone give me some advice on this situation? I greatly appeciate anything and EVERYTHING you give to me. [And, don't you love long threads? xD;; At least I'm telling you everything in detail. :<]