When I was working at Disney (yay for the college program!) and my program was about to end, I became depressed for the last month or so. On top of not wanting to leave, all of the problems that I had during my program balled up into one big blob and affected me, even though most of them were long over and didn't need to be dwelled on anymore.
I have anxiety problems, which went away at last when my program started, and those came back when I became depressed. I'm back home now and I've been miserable. I can't drive, I can't go anywhere, I can't do anything but stay home because of my anxiety and because of some restrictions. I do hobbies 'n stuff, so I can still reach my goals, but I still have panic attacks that keep me away from the things I enjoy and it's making me more and more miserable.
I also noticed that I changed a lot after my program -- I started swearing a lot, started talking about sex and alcohol and other icky things, and I became extremely pessimistic. I act very angry now, too (I act mean towards the people I'm close to yaaaaay), and I honestly hate how much I've changed. Everyone knows me as a very innocent, cutesy, positive person, and I'm the complete opposite now. I dwell on lots of negative things, I dwell on the bad things in the past, and it seems like this is all because of depression. I'm sick of acting like this.
What can I do to break out of all of this? I'm seriously miserable and I'm so lost.
tl;dr i hate anxiety and depression can felix fix it :C THANK YEW AND HAVE A MAGICAL DAYYYY c:
I have anxiety problems, which went away at last when my program started, and those came back when I became depressed. I'm back home now and I've been miserable. I can't drive, I can't go anywhere, I can't do anything but stay home because of my anxiety and because of some restrictions. I do hobbies 'n stuff, so I can still reach my goals, but I still have panic attacks that keep me away from the things I enjoy and it's making me more and more miserable.
I also noticed that I changed a lot after my program -- I started swearing a lot, started talking about sex and alcohol and other icky things, and I became extremely pessimistic. I act very angry now, too (I act mean towards the people I'm close to yaaaaay), and I honestly hate how much I've changed. Everyone knows me as a very innocent, cutesy, positive person, and I'm the complete opposite now. I dwell on lots of negative things, I dwell on the bad things in the past, and it seems like this is all because of depression. I'm sick of acting like this.
What can I do to break out of all of this? I'm seriously miserable and I'm so lost.
tl;dr i hate anxiety and depression can felix fix it :C THANK YEW AND HAVE A MAGICAL DAYYYY c: