I definitely understand that, Union X had lots of filler and felt needlessly long, and was mostly money grubbing. My personal favorite Kingdom Hearts game is the first one and the ones where you play as Aqua as it helps with my dysphoria and I like her character. I still wish Nomura had gone with his original plan and made Kairi playable in the first game, but it's whatevs at this point.
My favorite game is kh3 because it looks good. I always prefer the games that look best because I love to be impressed and look at pretty looking things. I agree and Aqua is my favorite character to play as because it helps with my dysphoria as well. I was super excited when Kairi was playable in remind, but I agree that she should’ve been playable earlier. Nomura has definitely been mistreating her in terms of writing and that started way back in CoM/kh2. If she were playable in kh1, no one would be complaining. I want her to be playable again and would love if she got her own game (featuring Aqua as her master of course). I would also FREAK if Xion were playable and she’s overdue for a playable moment. She wasn’t even playable in the big group fight in remind!
Yeah, I probably should have been more specific about that surgery lol. I just didn't feel like expanding on my explanation at that moment, but figured it would help for better context for this thread. I can tell you, having transphobic parents is a lot more common then you think. I've talked to a lot of transgender people, both irl in group meetings and online, that have told very similar scenarios. Many got disowned, or sent to conversion therapy, had to make it on their own etc. If it makes you feel better, I've lived long enough to see things are steadily getting better for the trans community. I'm 31, going on 32 this August 5th. Always felt wrong as a kid, but I never knew transgender people existed until college when I could finally use a laptop. So kept it inside most of my life, until 25 when I couldn't bear it anymore. I was one of the lucky ones that had parents that accepted me and helped me transition with the HRT expenses finding a doctor and counseling, then finally the surgery this year. All stuff I wouldn't have been able to handle on my own, with my autism and terrible social anxiety. I wouldn't be here today if it weren't for the support of my parents, then my best friend, and these games and Pokemon. Your generation has better access to the internet and support then me and the older generations have had. There's more charities etc, that helps transgender youth and other forms of connection. You just have to believe in yourself, look for online resources to help you when you need to move, make the connections. There's plenty of people out there willing to help and be empathetic these days, as research on transgender people continues to grow. It can be terrible with these anti-trans laws across countries etc, but I honestly believe your generation has a better shot at finding peace in this world and coexistence with cisgender people.
You know, I’d rather have had my parents disown me tbh. But no, they’re still set in believing that they can brainwash me into being the “perfect child” again.
Yes, I know transphobic parents is very common, and it makes me feel terrible that so many other teens are on the same boat as me. No one deserves that.
There is no doubt things are getting better. And things will keep getting better. I agree my generation has it a lot better than yours had, and things will be better and better each generation. I’m jealous of the kids that will be born decades in the future. I wish I were one of them lol.
Technology is definitely a factor. The first person I came out to was online because I couldn’t get myself to say the words with my own mouth. I barely knew what transgender meant and research online helped. I researched until I felt I knew all I needed to, plus more. Unfortunately, my parents don’t believe in privacy and they looked through my phone and hated everything they saw. That’s when they found out I’m trans. They thought the internet influenced me even though I had those feelings my whole life. They took away every social media they could think of (discord, Twitter, Facebook, YouTube, etc.). Khinsider is the only place I can talk to people online anymore. They took those sites away because they thought without those “influences” I would be “fixed”. But that would never work because the internet was never the reason, it was dysphoria.
My friends and siblings, and my aunt and her family keep me going too. If it weren’t for them, and media I watch/play, I don’t know if I would even still be here. My feelings of gratitude towards all these wonderful people is beyond description and now you’re on that list as well.
Sure my life seems like hell the majority of the time but these people help me remember there’s still good in the world and I can still try to be happy though all of this.
Just remember, you're still very young. I've waited 31 years just to begin feeling like I'm alive, and it is honestly never too late to transition. ( I used to doubt when older transgender people told me this, but after that surgery, I finally feel like I'm at a point I can believe it too.) And who knows? People can change. Maybe not immediately, but after or before you leave your parents, they might come around to educate themselves on transgender people and might come to accept you for you. My own parents are Trump supporters and Republicans, yet them and other Republicans have been capable of learning about us and changing their views and minds. A lot of Republicans are seeing this is wrong, especially when it's going against their views of no big government. Just try to believe in yourself. I know it's hard, it's taken me forever to do so as well. And if all else fails, there's always good people out there that can help.
Yeah I know I sound impatient, but I’m an impatient person. I began feeling dysphoria in 5th grade. I’m starting 11th grade soon so that’s almost 6 years. That’s already too long I don’t know if I can bear waiting past 18 to start my transition. Every day, I feel like I can barely handle another day, but if I have to push though for more than two years, I don’t think I have the strength to do that.
People complain that it feels like yesterday was March and it’s June now. I’m glad it feels like time is moving faster as I can get to a better place sooner (it feels like).
Years in the future, I’ll look back on this and I’ll see how impatient I’m being but now? Well, I want it now.
I seriously doubt my parents will come around. They do research on the OTHER side, actively looking for “proof” being transgender is wrong. They’re not going to switch sides just like that. Also there’s their religion and they believe being lgbt is a sin. Hard to change that.
Speaking of that, my sister is actually part of the same religion as my parents yet she is one of the most supportive allies I know. She picks and chooses what to believe and is completely on my side. She is technically republican too, but she’s 14 and she hasn’t done any research for herself. She is just told things by my (conservative) parents and believes them. She hasn’t done any research for herself before so her opinions aren’t exactly her opinions.
It’s taken a lot to accept myself. I’m the type to believe things I hear and not question it and the damaging things my parents told me stuck with me for so long that even months after I came out to everyone, I still felt like I was doing something wrong and bad. But after seeing so many allies that told me it was ok and I learned that you don’t have to be lgbt to believe that, I finally put those thoughts to rest and I felt a lot better.
Also, yeah, Kairi was actually my second chosen name. My first was Kinjavalesca, but my mom didn't want me to attract more attention to myself lol. XD Kairi's still good though, and it's funny but it feels like I was meant to be called that. Feels normal.
Where did you get Kinjavaleca from? I’ve never heard that one before.
It’s great when you find that perfect name. I always loved Kairi, but Willow is the only name that works for me, and no name is more perfect for me than that.
Sorry for such a long, off-topic post.