Peer-pressure, fear of abnormality, whatever you want to call it.
This problem started for me only recently and it's a habit I've been desperately trying to kick ever since. I feel like I'm starting to lose control over myself, like I'm only a pawn that can't think for itself anymore.
I see people in my age, partying and meeting girls on a Saturday evening, and I ask myself "Why can't I ask out people and spend time outside on weekends? Why don't I get to go to parties and celebrations with my friends?"
I see people in school getting good grades, making contributions to the lesson, showing great interest and joy for a subject, and I ask myself "Why can't I be so skilled in one particular topic? Why do I feel like I need everything explained twice until I get it, while they have close to no effort with that?
I see people with great and unique talents, musicians, artists, programmers, etc., how they effortlessly make one genius thing after another, gaining popularity and praise for their work. And I ask myself "Why can't I do these things? Where is my talent? Why can't I contribute anything that will amaze others and bring me praise?"
And after all those things, it normally ends in one particular question: "Am I abnormal?". Along with countless efforts to change myself accordingly, mostly getting me nowhere.
It's almost like a drug that you just can't lay off.
Have you ever encountered thoughts like these before? Have you ever tried to be like other people you know? Have you ever tried to change things about you and your life to be like somebody else?
Have you ever felt like you were too different from people of your age?
Post your experiences and opinions on the subject.
(This is not supposed to be a counter-thread to Jezza's (or Sam's threads for that matter) by the way, just so you know. Even if it would be deliciously ironic.)
This problem started for me only recently and it's a habit I've been desperately trying to kick ever since. I feel like I'm starting to lose control over myself, like I'm only a pawn that can't think for itself anymore.
I see people in my age, partying and meeting girls on a Saturday evening, and I ask myself "Why can't I ask out people and spend time outside on weekends? Why don't I get to go to parties and celebrations with my friends?"
I see people in school getting good grades, making contributions to the lesson, showing great interest and joy for a subject, and I ask myself "Why can't I be so skilled in one particular topic? Why do I feel like I need everything explained twice until I get it, while they have close to no effort with that?
I see people with great and unique talents, musicians, artists, programmers, etc., how they effortlessly make one genius thing after another, gaining popularity and praise for their work. And I ask myself "Why can't I do these things? Where is my talent? Why can't I contribute anything that will amaze others and bring me praise?"
And after all those things, it normally ends in one particular question: "Am I abnormal?". Along with countless efforts to change myself accordingly, mostly getting me nowhere.
It's almost like a drug that you just can't lay off.
Have you ever encountered thoughts like these before? Have you ever tried to be like other people you know? Have you ever tried to change things about you and your life to be like somebody else?
Have you ever felt like you were too different from people of your age?
Post your experiences and opinions on the subject.
(This is not supposed to be a counter-thread to Jezza's (or Sam's threads for that matter) by the way, just so you know. Even if it would be deliciously ironic.)