Ϡ Queen Anastaise | Dreaming, a hundred years from the Moon
The Queen parted her lips, and received a kiss sweeter than summer nectar.
A long-forgotten thrill shot into her chest, rose, and exploded behind the seal of her lover's mouth.
Oh, what a thrill!
She sucked in her breath, more out of reflex than arousal. Her nose was visited by the light, fresh scent of her handmaid's perfume. It mingled with the fruity summer wine that clung to their breath, and the combined scent took on a cloying, teasing quality. So sickly-sweet it was, almost to make one gag — but full of sharpness and youthful daring. Anastaise plunged into another kiss, taking the lead this time. She buried her face in a curtain of auburn curls. "My queen," her lover whispered when their lips separated, "my love, my love..."
Helena's body pushed against hers with all the eager wildness of youth. They spilled into the royal bed, breast against breast, legs locked, the girl's nose and mouth nuzzled under her mistress's chin. In order to catch her and hold her tight, Anastaise had no choice but to tear her arms free of their bonds. She wrenched her limbs loose, stretched her joints and muscles, and wrapped herself around Helena in the nick of time. Her nerves were tingling sharply, but still it felt wonderful to slide her hands down her lover's back. It was wonderful to feel every curve, every tense spot, and rejoice in the existence of a human body other than her own.
Her Majesty laughed breathlessly.
And what a body! What a beautiful girl...
They were lying together in a tangle now, taut and happy and unsure what to do. The eternal candles of the bedchamber, yielding to the Queen's silent wish, floated up to Helena and illuminated her from head to toe.
Barely older than twenty, Anastaise thought,
and still a touch of childhood in her face. Goddess, I am a horrible person. Her adoration — and her shame — must have shown upon her own face, because Helena's smile fell away.
"Oh, my sweet," she whispered. The girl steadied herself upon the bed, and looked down at the Queen. "Might you feel unwell tonight? I hope I wasn't... Is something wrong?"
Anastaise felt even worse then. "No," she replied, "no, certainly not."
She masked her discomfort with a smile and another light kiss. "With my lovely summer girl? Never."
She pulled Helena down with her, gently, and the two women nestled together in the bedsheets. Their passion had not died, but it was burning more slowly. Queen and handmaid fidgeted under the covers, bodies cupped together, hands searching. As she shifted to her side, Anastaise felt a dull pang and a weight in her belly. She gave a soft
huff of embarrassment. The memory was returning to her now: For the first time in quite a while, she had overeaten at that night's banquet — by quite a bit. Her stomach was still full to bursting, and she felt it much more acutely lying down.
Helena gave a soft titter. "Feeling the second course now, Your Majesty?" She reached behind and pinched Anastasise's belly. "I saw you from my table," she continued, "saying 'thank-you' to the soup, and then the fish, and then the poultry, and then
one-two-three-four little pies!"
Each item was accented by a pinch. The Queen pulled her lover's hand away, and guided it to the sweet spot between her legs. "Oh, hush," she said. "With all this silly magic about me, I'll never turn into the fat old toad that — by anyone's count — I should be. So it's quite within my right to be a gluttonous fool." She started to pleasure Helena with her free hand. "And to ask service of my subjects, and reward them in kind, and love them, and love them..."
At once she heard the sound again. It tickled at the back of her neck like a stranger's breath, out of rhythm with her loving. And she felt absolutely sinful. Not a queen at all, but a lecherous old pantaloon from some low comedy.
The sound was seeking her desperately. To drown herself in pleasure was not her right at all.
What is a woman, she thought,
if her chief good and market of her time be but to sleep and feed? Such a woman is no queen.
As gently as she could, she disentangled herself from Helena's warmth. The silk sheets fell from her body without so much as a whisper, and her clothes returned in an instant. Not a child's frock or a silk negligee this time, but a proper gown made for court. Somehow, Anastaise felt colder wearing it.
She looked back to her bed; still it was ringed with floating candles, and
Helena was still inside.
The handmaid had not moved an inch. She lay on her side, mostly covered, her auburn hair splayed out on the pillows. The Queen could see the outline of her own body in the sheets — a queen-shaped pocket of air, gently deflating around the poor girl. A few seconds passed in this way. Then Helena whispered, barely louder than the strange, irregular sound: "You are Always so kind to me, my queen. if our respective roles did not Leave you so indisposed, and Me So busy, know that all of my minutes would go to you Alone.
"but now, When duty pulls You away for the hundredth time, i must confess: you are my mother, my sister, my husband, my queen, and my beloved. to any of those i would be the counterpart. ask anything of me; Do unto me as you will. This is your right, and I would Hate to disappoint You in failing some service that lies within my power. love And service are entwined, after all. work cannot spoil the love I have for you, nor time, nor war, nor Hate. nothing can drive a splint between you and Myself. nothing has yet, and nothing Yet will. so I freely bid you farewell, my love, though i Still Yearn for more time To have with you. Be well, and may the day be Yours." Helena turned her face into the pillow, and wept.
Her Majesty wished nothing more than to give Helena her heart — her whole heart — to have and to hold, to soothe all her hurts. But the Queen's heart had been butchered and eaten. It was not yet hers to give again. She left the royal bedchamber, out the door and up the stairs.
Her stomach was full now, and this would sustain her on the long climb. Her arms were free and ready for battle.
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The Last Queen cleared her lungs, expelling all of the bad air that had crept inside her.
She needed to be pure and whole for what was to come, even though her heart was missing.
The western tower of Fort Londe wrapped its walls around her. It was midnight. The lamps were low, and the room had been cleared. The Queen stood at the center of a massive circle drawn in chalk, the focal point from which a hundred different pentagrams and tetragrams sprung to ensnare her. They sent their invisible tendrils after her arms, her legs — but her legs had long ago thrown off their shackles, and her arms were free from their bonds. Planting her herself squarely on the stone floor, she made the Holy Sign high above her head. The grasping demons withered before her feet.
Then Her Majesty searched the darkness for her attackers. Her betrayers.
Three figures stood in front of her, and three stood to her back. Their voices bounced off the walls and mingled together, enveloping the Queen with the terrible sound of a chant in the language of Hell. Together, they made the voice of Legion.
Yet their faces had not changed, and there was still light enough to see them. She counted clockwise from the left: her son and the bishop who baptized him, the captain of her guard and the chamberlain of her house, the wealthy merchant with whom she shared her table, and a woman she did not know. Each held a piece of her heart. They looked at her, but they did not see her.
Perhaps that is for the best, she thought.
If one of them, if Lucius, could read my—
She stepped toward her son, and in doing so breached the innermost summoning circle. In that very instant, all the world seemed to tremble — the floor buckled, and the walls rippled like the surface of a pond. The conspirators broke off their chanting. A ragged intake of breath, from all six, cut through the air. Before any one of them could speak, the oaken doors to the commander's chamber flew from their hinges, streaming white-hot fire from the outside. They disintegrated into ash at the first touch of the stone floor.
The conspirators fell into shouting and confusion, scrambling for their weapons or for safe cover. Only the strange woman remained calm, the Queen saw: A steady stream of incantations rolling from her tongue, and her hands guided a dozen different warding signs toward the open doorway.
A witch, Her Majesty realized. She could not help admiring such precise spellcraft.
Here is the architect of this treason — or its emissary to Hell, at the very least. Yet when the Queen looked ahead to the doorway, she saw nothing. The spells were striking and binding empty air. The pontiff raised his staff against a vacant space in the air, and Sir Bercilak raised his shield to guard against ... nothing.
In unison, the conspirators spun about to face the spot where the Queen stood.
Then the tower shuddered a second time, and the far wall burst open.
The six looked in amazement at, yet again, nothing at all. Their eyes traced an invisible object as it arced through the sky. Her Majesty watched this play out with the air of a detached spectator. This battle had never been hers, she realized, and it harbored sights that were not meant for her to see. She had only to collect what was due her.
. . . . .
The Lord Chamberlain had turned away from the ruined tower wall, and was speaking to some invisible person. His twiggy hands shook in the open air, from nervousness as much as the night chill. He spoke in a placating tone that the Queen knew all too well. One hand still clutched the piece of her heart; he gestured with it unconsciously, sometimes offered it to the object of his supplications. Gently the Queen removed it from his grasp. Then she approached the small crowd near the hole in the wall.
The Lord Bishop gripped his piece tightly beneath his chin, every now and then stopping to take a nibble of the stringy heart meat. His chins were covered in blood, and his jowls quivered nervously — but his eyes, glittering like ice, still chased after the object in flight. He gnawed with the distracted air of a beast over an old kill, contemplating his next move as he chewed. When he tried next to take another bite, the Queen plucked the piece of her heart from his ruddy lips.
The merchant, meanwhile, was trying furiously to stuff his portion of the Queen's heart into his purse. His face was pulled tight in concentration, his fingers worked madly; but he could not manage to keep a firm grip on the tiny piece of muscle. It was too slick with blood and juices, and slipped from his hands whenever he seemed most sure of his grip. When he tried unsuccessfully to daub it dry with his handkerchief, Her Majesty snatched it from his open palm. He continued to wipe at the empty air.
The Prince was not so gentle with his piece of his mother's heart. He was breathing heavily — disgustingly so, even — shaking his fists, shouting obscenities at the empty sky. Every foul word was accentuated by a tight, angry
squeeze of the red sliver in his hand. Blood was spurting over his clothes, onto the floor, and the only thought in his mind was of the thing that had ruined the conspirators' ritual. The Queen felt the boy's fingernails digging into her heart, and she wondered at how much bile had grown inside her teenage son. She had no option but to pry his hand open and take the piece by force.
Behind Lucius, one hand draped halfheartedly on his shoulder, was the unknown woman. She, too, searched after the elusive flying object; but her expression was indecipherable. It could have been bitterness or resignation, or even a kind of grudging admiration. The Queen could make nothing of it. When she searched for the piece of her heart, however, she found it cradled gently in the crook of the witch's arm. Her Majesty took it without a moment's pause.
One piece yet remained.
Then she spotted Sir Bercilak. The Green Knight had already bolted for the interior of the fort, ready to lead the purge of his fellow knights — but he had tripped over his own long sabatons, and fell face-first onto the floor. In doing so, he had dropped his piece of the Queen’s heart. He pulled himself up with surprising speed, and — checking first that no one had noticed his tumble — slipped out the doorway. The Queen picked the sliver of her heart off the floor, and placed it with the others.
Her heart was all together at last, but it was not yet whole. The pieces twitched in disjointed rhythm, restless even in their owner's hands. Try as she might, Anastaise could not put them together.
The sound returned to her then, in the same unsteady tempo that it always had. It was coming from outside, she realized, reaching the western tower through the breached wall. The six conspirators had since dispersed, leaving the shelf of stone floor open to the air. The Queen stood with her toes at the very edge, breathed the moist night air deeply, and listened...
Weeping, she identified it for the first time. The sound seemed to come from the Moon, from across a great distance.
The Moon is ... weeping for me? That did not seem right to her. The Moon was her guardian, the source of her strength. It served as her sigil among men, and shielded her soldiers from harm.
The Moon would not weep for her; the Moon was beyond the anguish of mortals.
Clutching the shards of her heart, the Last Queen stepped into the air, and walked toward the great golden globe that beckoned her.