So how long has it been? 5/6 months? Wow it seems like so much longer o.o and I mean that in the best way possible xD well, tonight is my last night, after I log off tonight I most likely will not be returning again.
Why am I leaving? Well I have been thinking about it recently anyway, xD internet is taking over my life waaay too much, I mean I supermod two large sites, and I admin at a few smaller ones as well as trying to you know, have an actual life =p
Today was the icing on the cake, I found out a friend has got into a really bad car crash, he will be in hospital for a long time, I don’t know yet whether he will make it. I hope to god (or whatever the heck it is that exists) that he makes it through, you see, in the past 2 years; I have had to deal with more death than I ever want to feel again. I know it is a part of life and all that jazz, but damn, 3 friends alone to care crashes in the past 18months, I am hoping my friend doesn’t make it a 4th. So, relevance of this? It’s got me thinking, if I was to die tomorrow what would I be remembered for? I don’t want to be “that girl who was a staffer on some internet places” I actually want something from life xD this summer I get the chance to actually go on excavation at one of the most important sites in Europe D: (I am an archaeologist in training for those who are wondering what the hell I am on about xD) Life is short, I can’t waste it forever on the internets you know, =p
I leave tonight and I am taking some ****ing awesome moments with me forever imprinted on my ditz of a brain xD I remember when I was still fairly new and I was part of a sting operation in the Inferno to help catch a cheat xDDD that was most fun. I will naturally also be taking some moments that I would really rather ****ing forget, but hey, that’s life xD
You know, this is actually harder than I was expecting it to be, believe it or not I have grown to actually adore quite a lot of you <3 I will miss some of you a hell of a lot :3 True there are some of you that I am hoping die in the most painful drawn out vicious bloody way imaginable =D did I mention painful and slow? :3
I feel like I need to make some, hmm not shout outs, but stuff aimed at specific people, don’t worry loves I wont use your names =p
Person A: I will still help mentor you in maths, so don’t worry <3 and I know you will do well on your exam.
Person B: I will be expecting to finish our debate on Tragedies over Comedies at some point =p you know that I will win :3
Person C: Honey I have given you all the advice I can, just ask her out already.
Person D: Sweetie don’t worry, I’m still going to be available to talk to so don’t panic :3 I will still help you through and you will make it :3 you’re a strong girl don’t forget that.
Other people that I am helping with various shit xD my MSN, AIM, Yahoo and Skype are all in my profile :3 feel free to add me and I will continue helping, I don’t abandon those who I promise to help.
Hmm what else, what else? Oh, the people who posted in my thread regarding my photography, thank you, you all helped me greatly :3 maybe one day I shall show you new stuff for you to look at and compare xD
People from the Have you ever? Thread, omfg you guys have cracked me up so many times that it isn’t even funny anymore xD Keep that thread alive, it is one of my absolute favourites.
Staffers: Oh lordy what can I say? xD I have loved being one of you guys, it’s been a real ****ing blast, for sure I worked with some of you more than others xD but nonetheless, I have loved every second. From small things like locking threads to staying up until 5 in the ****ing morning because of a troll who wouldn’t quit.
Marwa: cloney of mine I love you to pieces xD
Joe: dude you are like my brother :3 you and Bob xD and you were one of my first friends here xD
Xidon: damn it dude you always will be my favourite tag maker <3 I shall keep all the ones you made me :3
Blech I can’t name all of you or else this would be even longer o_o;
I doubt my leaving will actually affect that many of you, after all, I wasn’t here all that long really and I am rather shy so I never got the chance to speak to a lot of you >.< for those who I have spoken to, I hope you remember me in a good way <3
I will still be interneting, so if you ever wish to talk then you can MSN, AIM, Yahoo whatevs me and I will make time :3 I guess there isn’t much more for me to say. So I will leave you with some advice I guess;
Be careful who you love, be careful who you trust and be careful who you give yourself to, now I am not saying don’t take a chance, but just be careful. It is a sad fact that one day you will get hurt, a little caution can be a great help.
That said, never regret anything, life is short do not waste it on regrets. Learn from the things that go wrong but do not regret them. Everything happens for a reason, that doesn’t mean that it has to always go right. Sometimes in life we need to fall so that we can learn to stand back up.
I have given this one before but it is a useful piece. Forgive but don’t forget, learn from the burn but don’t hold a grudge.
What’s done is done and can’t be undone, but do not let your past consume you; let it shape your future, not dictate it.
Finally, be true to you, there will be times when people will be willing to cause you the most pain, but as long as you remain true to you and keep your head above the scent of chaos, you will do fine.
I refuse to say goodbye, it is far too final and I am finding it hard to let go xD so I shall say instead,
Later Loves,
Stay safe and be happy <3
p.s For Old Times Sake <3
Nice vid that has a beautiful song <3
Why am I leaving? Well I have been thinking about it recently anyway, xD internet is taking over my life waaay too much, I mean I supermod two large sites, and I admin at a few smaller ones as well as trying to you know, have an actual life =p
Today was the icing on the cake, I found out a friend has got into a really bad car crash, he will be in hospital for a long time, I don’t know yet whether he will make it. I hope to god (or whatever the heck it is that exists) that he makes it through, you see, in the past 2 years; I have had to deal with more death than I ever want to feel again. I know it is a part of life and all that jazz, but damn, 3 friends alone to care crashes in the past 18months, I am hoping my friend doesn’t make it a 4th. So, relevance of this? It’s got me thinking, if I was to die tomorrow what would I be remembered for? I don’t want to be “that girl who was a staffer on some internet places” I actually want something from life xD this summer I get the chance to actually go on excavation at one of the most important sites in Europe D: (I am an archaeologist in training for those who are wondering what the hell I am on about xD) Life is short, I can’t waste it forever on the internets you know, =p
I leave tonight and I am taking some ****ing awesome moments with me forever imprinted on my ditz of a brain xD I remember when I was still fairly new and I was part of a sting operation in the Inferno to help catch a cheat xDDD that was most fun. I will naturally also be taking some moments that I would really rather ****ing forget, but hey, that’s life xD
You know, this is actually harder than I was expecting it to be, believe it or not I have grown to actually adore quite a lot of you <3 I will miss some of you a hell of a lot :3 True there are some of you that I am hoping die in the most painful drawn out vicious bloody way imaginable =D did I mention painful and slow? :3
I feel like I need to make some, hmm not shout outs, but stuff aimed at specific people, don’t worry loves I wont use your names =p
Person A: I will still help mentor you in maths, so don’t worry <3 and I know you will do well on your exam.
Person B: I will be expecting to finish our debate on Tragedies over Comedies at some point =p you know that I will win :3
Person C: Honey I have given you all the advice I can, just ask her out already.
Person D: Sweetie don’t worry, I’m still going to be available to talk to so don’t panic :3 I will still help you through and you will make it :3 you’re a strong girl don’t forget that.
Other people that I am helping with various shit xD my MSN, AIM, Yahoo and Skype are all in my profile :3 feel free to add me and I will continue helping, I don’t abandon those who I promise to help.
Hmm what else, what else? Oh, the people who posted in my thread regarding my photography, thank you, you all helped me greatly :3 maybe one day I shall show you new stuff for you to look at and compare xD
People from the Have you ever? Thread, omfg you guys have cracked me up so many times that it isn’t even funny anymore xD Keep that thread alive, it is one of my absolute favourites.
Staffers: Oh lordy what can I say? xD I have loved being one of you guys, it’s been a real ****ing blast, for sure I worked with some of you more than others xD but nonetheless, I have loved every second. From small things like locking threads to staying up until 5 in the ****ing morning because of a troll who wouldn’t quit.
Marwa: cloney of mine I love you to pieces xD
Joe: dude you are like my brother :3 you and Bob xD and you were one of my first friends here xD
Xidon: damn it dude you always will be my favourite tag maker <3 I shall keep all the ones you made me :3
Blech I can’t name all of you or else this would be even longer o_o;
I doubt my leaving will actually affect that many of you, after all, I wasn’t here all that long really and I am rather shy so I never got the chance to speak to a lot of you >.< for those who I have spoken to, I hope you remember me in a good way <3
I will still be interneting, so if you ever wish to talk then you can MSN, AIM, Yahoo whatevs me and I will make time :3 I guess there isn’t much more for me to say. So I will leave you with some advice I guess;
Be careful who you love, be careful who you trust and be careful who you give yourself to, now I am not saying don’t take a chance, but just be careful. It is a sad fact that one day you will get hurt, a little caution can be a great help.
That said, never regret anything, life is short do not waste it on regrets. Learn from the things that go wrong but do not regret them. Everything happens for a reason, that doesn’t mean that it has to always go right. Sometimes in life we need to fall so that we can learn to stand back up.
I have given this one before but it is a useful piece. Forgive but don’t forget, learn from the burn but don’t hold a grudge.
What’s done is done and can’t be undone, but do not let your past consume you; let it shape your future, not dictate it.
Finally, be true to you, there will be times when people will be willing to cause you the most pain, but as long as you remain true to you and keep your head above the scent of chaos, you will do fine.
I refuse to say goodbye, it is far too final and I am finding it hard to let go xD so I shall say instead,
Later Loves,
Stay safe and be happy <3
p.s For Old Times Sake <3
Nice vid that has a beautiful song <3