There are a lot of things that I wanted to do with my life but I am so much in my mind entertaining thoughts that I have trouble turning them into action. I want to practice drawing, I want to a write fanfiction, I want to create avatars, I want to record YouTube videos but I just can't seem to get on task with these things and it is not just because of my less than desirable economic situation. I could land a job but I never I wish I had the patience to do the things I want to do but I can't seem to do them, what can I do to remedy this and how do I develop the patience for this stuff? I missed out on a lot of things that I could've done for any video game fandom and for myself.