My name is Janie
there was a boy who lived 2 houses away from me, he was my roll model and my body guard when i started school when i was 5. but ever since i was 7 after school i'd go to his house, at first it was just a normal thing, like who wouldnt want to go to there bestfriends house after school =]
but then after about two weeks going to his house after school he started acting different, and he told me to kiss him once which i was feeling weird about but when i said no he started telling me im a little baby, and said all the girls his age were already kissing and that i should be good at it too. so when he was teaching me to kiss him i stoped. and i tryed to go home and he held me down and started kissing me. all i could do is just lay there. and then he told me to stand up and he started talking off my pants. i started crying and telling him i wanted to go home but he wouldnt listen he told me that this is what everyone does. when he took off all my clothes he bent me over on his sofa and started to finger me. and then put himself inside me. it hurt and i bled alot. he pushed soo hard from behind. and then he just stopped and then stoped holding me down and then starting putting me down telling me i was worthless and that he cant belive i just let him do that to me. and i was a slut. and it went on until i was 11 and then i found out what he was doing to me. i told him i could never talked to him again and he said if i ever told anyone about it he would kill me. His now 16 and im 13. he is a part of a gang. and carries knifes and im still so scared to say anything.
What should I do?
there was a boy who lived 2 houses away from me, he was my roll model and my body guard when i started school when i was 5. but ever since i was 7 after school i'd go to his house, at first it was just a normal thing, like who wouldnt want to go to there bestfriends house after school =]
but then after about two weeks going to his house after school he started acting different, and he told me to kiss him once which i was feeling weird about but when i said no he started telling me im a little baby, and said all the girls his age were already kissing and that i should be good at it too. so when he was teaching me to kiss him i stoped. and i tryed to go home and he held me down and started kissing me. all i could do is just lay there. and then he told me to stand up and he started talking off my pants. i started crying and telling him i wanted to go home but he wouldnt listen he told me that this is what everyone does. when he took off all my clothes he bent me over on his sofa and started to finger me. and then put himself inside me. it hurt and i bled alot. he pushed soo hard from behind. and then he just stopped and then stoped holding me down and then starting putting me down telling me i was worthless and that he cant belive i just let him do that to me. and i was a slut. and it went on until i was 11 and then i found out what he was doing to me. i told him i could never talked to him again and he said if i ever told anyone about it he would kill me. His now 16 and im 13. he is a part of a gang. and carries knifes and im still so scared to say anything.
What should I do?