I'm atheist-agnostic and I suggest religion if you're alone or depressed. Try going to school. You won't have an issue getting a minimum wage job, and bunk with a friend with a steady income. Try online dating or start going out more. If you're artistically inclined do something with that. Write a book, sell paintngs for extra cash. Keep going to school and keep a longterm goal in mind. As long as you're trying there's always hope things will improve. But you have to make the effort.