Some days ago, I met a girl on face who turned out to be my bestfriend's cousin. Let's name him Mike.
So, Mike told me that she was a player who played alot of guys. Therefore, i got a little interested and wanted to "play" the player. I was so excited and amused by the "game" we had created, and my goal got stronger everyday. However, something changed. I didn't want to "play" her anymore.
I wanted to know her better. We started to chat alot, but Mike kept telling me that she was just playing with me and that I had to get to my senses, or else I would lose sight of my real goal. So while I chatted with her, I also beared in mind with the fear of the fact that she someday could play me back.
The feeling of her having the upper hand was always present, so I acted really arrogant,
I was acting like "the one". In the beginning she was quite amused by it, and I thought that by acting like a jerk, I would differ from all her "boys" and not become one of her "shoelickers".
But there were quite often moments when I didn't act like a complete jerk and being the real me.
But in the end, she got tired of my arrogance. We started to quarrel, and I told her the truth. The truth about me and Mike's bet. Or game. Whatever you call it, maybe stupid idea.
She wrote me a really long message, telling me how shocked she was and how pathetic Mike and I were. And that she didn't care. I was so sad. Because in the days we talked with each other, I felt like she cared for me and that she wanted to become friends. But she wrote in the message that she DIDN'T CARE.
You could say that she won the game. That I got left with the feeling of being a complete idiot.
But it doesn't matter to me. I'm so very sorry for everything, and I regret that we came with that little idea late at night, just to shatter our relationship. If only me and Mike didn't talk that day.
Maybe our relationship would have been drastically different now.
She has completely cut me out, no msn, no face, no telephone. And she lives far away.
I do not ask for sympathy or anything, but please, if you can support me and she sees my video, MAYBE she will consider a new start. PLEASE. I lost a really good person.
Search what's left to say on youtube. Im not going to say my account name, because I think that is against the rules, but it's a name with 'sushi' in it.
So, Mike told me that she was a player who played alot of guys. Therefore, i got a little interested and wanted to "play" the player. I was so excited and amused by the "game" we had created, and my goal got stronger everyday. However, something changed. I didn't want to "play" her anymore.
I wanted to know her better. We started to chat alot, but Mike kept telling me that she was just playing with me and that I had to get to my senses, or else I would lose sight of my real goal. So while I chatted with her, I also beared in mind with the fear of the fact that she someday could play me back.
The feeling of her having the upper hand was always present, so I acted really arrogant,
I was acting like "the one". In the beginning she was quite amused by it, and I thought that by acting like a jerk, I would differ from all her "boys" and not become one of her "shoelickers".
But there were quite often moments when I didn't act like a complete jerk and being the real me.
But in the end, she got tired of my arrogance. We started to quarrel, and I told her the truth. The truth about me and Mike's bet. Or game. Whatever you call it, maybe stupid idea.
She wrote me a really long message, telling me how shocked she was and how pathetic Mike and I were. And that she didn't care. I was so sad. Because in the days we talked with each other, I felt like she cared for me and that she wanted to become friends. But she wrote in the message that she DIDN'T CARE.
You could say that she won the game. That I got left with the feeling of being a complete idiot.
But it doesn't matter to me. I'm so very sorry for everything, and I regret that we came with that little idea late at night, just to shatter our relationship. If only me and Mike didn't talk that day.
Maybe our relationship would have been drastically different now.
She has completely cut me out, no msn, no face, no telephone. And she lives far away.
I do not ask for sympathy or anything, but please, if you can support me and she sees my video, MAYBE she will consider a new start. PLEASE. I lost a really good person.
Search what's left to say on youtube. Im not going to say my account name, because I think that is against the rules, but it's a name with 'sushi' in it.
