Fanfiction ► Kairi's Diary

[Sora788]

lol, yes I think Riku does have a thing for Kairi. :] But I don't know if she likes him too much.

Sora better call...soon...

 

[Azrael]

lol, yes I think Riku does have a thing for Kairi. :] But I don't know if she likes him too much.

Sora better call...soon...

f*** that, make him get his butt to Kairi so they can have a fluffy moment! I will feed up rep until you post more!

 

[Xuan]

Hi, Sora788. In case you've forgotten, I've reviewed your story in fanfiction.net Apparently you update faster over there

Anyway, just saying that it's a bloody good job you've did on this chapter, especially where the part Sora 'demonise' and choked Kairi to death. Felt like real.

 

[Sora788]

^ Hello Xuan Oh, no, I haven't forgotten!! I still remember! Yes, thank you for the review! :] I update there first and then here second.

Thank you for the encouraging comment! I tried to make it sound good and not over do it at the same time. My only fear is that I don't want the pace to go too fast or too slow. I'm trying to make it in the middle. I wrote chapter 3 a long time ago, but then I thought it was too sudden so I had to rewrite everything!! Yeah, that was hell because I had already written 16 pages and then I had to rewrite the whole thing...

 

[madammina]

I decide to check in and see that one of my favorite fan fics has updated. Thanks!

 

[Sora788]

^ Hey! Thank you!! I have Chapter 4 done. I am so glad. My stupid Internet isnt working at home so Imight not be able to update ch5 and right now it's half way done!! This sucks.

Thank you to everyone who has taken the time to read this :]

 

[Sora788]

Kairi’s Diary​

Chapter 4​

I felt a cool, sweet aroma heaving onto my face constantly. Prying my eyes open slowly, I found myself lying in bed next to Marluxia. His arms were clasped around me, his eyes were closed, undisturbed. My head was gently resting against his cold chest as he breathed on me. Daylight hardly arrived but the weak sun did look inviting as a few streaks of light illuminated upon his face.

My breathing ceased, almost noiseless as I tried hard to stay still. I didn’t want him to know that I was awake. The surrounding scent of the pleasant roses seeped into my mind and relaxed me. I didn’t want to move, I didn’t want to get out of bed or away from his arms. I sighed inwardly, trying to grasp this moment.

His chin moved slightly on top of my messy auburn hair. I gulped, I hoped he didn’t wake up, this moment was too good to give up. A smooth groan escaped from his lips, his arms tightened around me as he brought me closer to his chilly chest. A shivering ripple passed through my cheek and the rest of my body.

“Kairi?” he asked melodically in a quiet voice.

“Hmm…”

He ran his hand up against my back, up my neck, then through my knotted hair while he mused quietly to himself. “Did you sleep well?”

I nodded my head for my answer and clutched closer to him. My hands gripped hard around the zipper of his black cloak. My body pressed harder against his. I felt the stiffness in his body increasing.

“Any bad dreams?” His words were carefully chosen, trying not to upset me from my disturbing dream from yesterday.

I shook my head and he sighed in relief. No, I didn’t have any bad dreams, I slept peacefully for once.

After mustering my courage, I spoke, breaking the shock that I was temporarily in. “H-how long have you been sleeping with me?” I waited patiently for him to talk.

His humble chuckle vibrated in the air above us. “Only when I saw you toss and turn in your sleep.”

“Was I really that restless?” I didn’t remember sleeping recklessly.

He shifted his cheek on top on my hair as he continued to play with locks of my hair. “I thought I would help by laying next to you.” He paused to chuckle again before going on. “You clung onto me almost instantly.”

“Oh,” was all I managed to say on the matter because I could feel myself blushing like crazy. “Thanks.”

“You’re welcome sweetheart.” He sighed into my hair again and pulled me tighter to him as if we weren’t tight enough already. “I wanted to see you. It’s hard for me to stay in there---,” obviously he was talking about my diary now, “for a long time.”

After giving it a seconds thought I gasped, “Oh Marluxia! You don’t have to go back in there!” Guilt ate my conscience. “You have suffered enough in there, why do you go back anyway?! Don’t go back! Please, do whatever makes you feel better.”

“Thank you, Kairi, but I will do what is necessary.”

I felt the tension in his body loosen a bit as he spoke his assuring words. My body relaxed a notch as well, but stiffened again as the thought of Sora entered my mind suddenly.

Prying myself away from Marluxia’s comforting embrace, I politely excused myself and headed to the bathroom, but stopped at the edge of my door. I gazed at his face for a moment, taking in his breathtaking features. As I looked away, my face turned a beat red color when I walked down the hall and locked the bathroom door behind me.

What the hell was I doing? I knew Sora wouldn’t be happy if he found out that I was getting too comfortable with some guy, no scratch that, he wouldn’t like it if I was beginning to fall for a grim reaper.

I shook my head slightly, I couldn’t loose myself. I needed to make sure I didn’t do anything irrational, nothing that would make me stray away from Sora to other people. I looked into the mirror as my shoulders dropped down. No, I wasn’t that kind of person, I wasn’t a cheater.

---xxx---

On our walk to school, Marluxia kept his distance close to me, his shoulder occasionally brushing against my arm. I left the diary home on my desk instead of bringing it with me as I usual do. I didn’t think that it wouldn’t be pleasant for Marluxia to be reminded of it if I carried it around me everywhere.

He whistled an unfamiliar tune that soothed my mind as we strolled down the sun lit pathway. It was as if invisible musical notes were flowing from his mouth.

I took in the gorgeous surrounding engulfing me. The leaves from the large trees were a collage of warm colors, various shades of reds, oranges, browns, and yellows mixed in together. Autumn was such a beautiful season, the colors of the leaves brought such vibrancy in the atmosphere. I took in a deep breath of the forest scent and exhaled slowly.

I glanced at the sky ahead, the clouds were clear and not a single rain cloud was visible. A small grin curled onto my face at this thought. The change of weather was great, compared to the raining days.

My focus was diverted to my companion when he reached for my hand that lingered by my side. He wrapped his fingers through mine and held onto my hand securely, not wanting to let go.

My eyes darted from our joined hands to his smiling face. His rosy pink hair glistened in the sun, it looked like it glittered. He came a few steps closer towards me as we walked in silence.

I wanted to pull my hand away but at the same time I didn’t want to let go. Sora would most definitely not approve of this, but I couldn’t just tell Marluxia off without any apparent reason. He didn’t know who Sora was and how I felt about him. What to do…

As I pondered over my options, Marluxia had already released my hand as if he read my mind. His smile faltered as he looked at the compulsory frown that was engraved upon my face. I didn’t want to hurt his feelings, but I mean, Sora would kind of get hurt if I did things like this, whether he was watching or not. In my heart, I knew I was trying to be as loyal as possible and I wanted it to stay like that.

Oh, but the temptation, it was too hard to resist. My willing eyes trailed his hand retreating back to his side, I wanted to grab it again and hold it forever. The touch of his skin was so soft and smooth, I hadn’t felt anything like it before.

I bit my lower lip in frustration as I continued to watch his neglected hand and thought about how lonely it would get if I didn’t hold onto to it that instant. Apparently Marluxia noticed my worried state of mind because he broke the quiet chain between us.

“Is there something wrong, Kairi?” he began in his velvety voice, he continued, “Did I make you feel uncomfortable?”

I shook my head vigorously in disagreement. “No, no!! You weren’t making me feel anything like that, it’s just that…” I trailed off, not knowing how to finish my sentence.

“It’s just that, what?” he inquired, then thought some more. “Don’t worry, I won’t do that again.” An apologetic smile came across his face as he looked down at me. He took a few steps away from me to allow more space between us.

“It’s nothing,” I lied. How could I tell him that I wanted to hold his hand, but at the same time I couldn’t? I tried hard not to look into his dreamy eyes because I knew that once we locked eyes directly, it would be hard to look away.

But, why did I feel so attracted to him? I knew him for a few days, so why all of a sudden did I feel this upcoming fascination and urge to be with him? Oh, how stupid could I be? I couldn’t fool myself. I mean, c’mon Kairi! Just look at him. He’s so angelic, so heaven-like. He’s an angel from heaven and came into my life, could I be that blind?

His looks were beyond beautiful, the eccentric beauty was beyond compare. The rose aroma encircling him was like a perfume you couldn’t buy anywhere. His skin was pale and glowing, so lively.

I had to stop thinking about his exquisiteness and looked away. I decided to gaze at the vibrant assortment of leaves scattered about me on the sidewalk. It was silent again, the crunching sound of leaves underneath me was the only thing that reached my ears.

It was good that he didn’t talk, his voice was too seductive, so irresistible. It was weird though, how he could read me with me having to speak a single word. He talked when I wanted, needed him to and didn’t when he knew that it would be better if he just didn’t. I was almost hopeful that we didn’t talk at all until I was walking to the bench that Olette and I always occupied in the mornings. But that urge I had wanted to hear him talk all day, forever even. I sighed again in perplexity as I looked at Olette.

Marluxia sat beside me, but not too close for I felt that he was trying to make me feel as comfortable as possible. I wanted to pulled him closer to me, but I didn’t. Instead I forcefully turned away from him as focused on my best friend.

“Kairi, guess what?” Olette asked excitedly as I paid full attention to her.

“Yeah?” I faked a joyful tone and smiled reluctantly. This better not be about---

“Riku looked at me this morning as he was walking by!!” she exclaimed, her voice seemed to be high pitched.

I winced at his name. Well, I should have known better of what Olette’s main subject of conversation would be like to begin with. It’s my fault for expecting better.

“And this is…supposed to be a good thing?” I asked in great disbelief.

“Yes, Kairi, it is! He almost never looks at me! He glanced me and then turned away. But, wait!” She held her hand up in front of her, “It gets better!”

“Oh yeah?” I said skeptically. This ought to be good.

“He looked over at me five times! Kairi, five!!” Her two hands rejoiced together and she squealed happily. “Can you believe it?”

“No.”

Her smile flipped to a frown as she nudged me. “Do you have to bring me down in times of my happiness?”

I crossed my hands over my chest. “What happiness can you possibly find in that?”

Olette rolled her green eyes in annoyance. “What about him does not please you?”

Hmm, well that certainly gave me something to think about. How about everything?

“Olette, we’ve already been through this sort of conversation yesterday…but, if you insist, let me begin.”

I searched the different niches and crowds for the sucker but without prevail. Expectantly, I heard a small cry of delight from Olette as she turned my head to the jerk who leaned against the brick wall with his muscular arms crossed over his chest as his head was bowed down. His face seem to be calculating, as if in deep thought or in a trance. A group of his friends sat on the asphalt as they encircled him with their skateboards littering the ground. Disgusting.

Grunting, I eyed him carefully top to bottom.

Clearing my throat, I started. “Now, look at his hair,” I directed Olette who was already doing so. “It’s too long and he looks like some gender confused girl.”

“Riku is not a girl!” Olette objected automatically before I had finished speaking. She threw a scowl look at me as well as another gente nudge in my ribs.

“It’s too long to begin with. He really needs a haircut, and besides, his hair is layered and I bet he dyed it silver. That spells out ‘G-I-R-L’ all over his face.” I peered over at Olette to see her reaction.

“That’s his fashion statement. I think it’s unique, and guys can have layered hair too.”

I bit my tongue. Marluxia was sitting right next to me and he has hair that’s a creamy shade of raspberry and is heavily layered. With all my talk so far, he might think I am talking about him too, which wasn’t the case. By no means was I trying to offend him.

“Ok,” I said resentfully, “You’re right. Guys can have layered hair too, my bad.”

She cheered up a little and urged me to continue my criticism of the jerk named Riku. “Go on.”

“Right.” I observed him for a moment longer, thinking about what I was going to say before blurting out whatever so that Marluxia didn’t get the wrong message. “He is showing part of his stomach in that small vest of his.”

“So what? Guys do that now a days. I think that’s hot!” She purred lowly as I frowned at her in aversion.

“His pants are dangerously low,” I pointed out. “It’s practically hanging down almost below his crotch.” It pained me to say this, but it was so true. I secretly thought that his low pants were the reason he collided into me that day while riding that dumb skateboard of his.

Olette’s eyes flamed with rage, as if she got offended. “Kairi! Are you looking at him there,” she emphasized angrily as her foot tapped against the ground rapidly.

“What? No! Ew, how could you think that?” I fought back with bewilderment. This certainly wasn’t going too well.

A playful smirk came across her lips. “You said he was a girl right, or looked like one?” I nodded in agreement and she pressed on, “Well, then, why don’t we just dig down in his ’dangerously low pants’ and find out what‘s in there.”

My faced turned to stone at her words. I wanted to wash her mouth with soap and block my ears. “Olette!!!!! Who the hell would want to even do such a thing?” I felt so dirty, the gruesome thought invaded my mind as I tried to push it out.

“I would.”

“Olette!” I wanted to slap some sense and dignity into this crazy woman.

“I was just kidding,” she said playfully, but I didn’t believe for one second that she was really joking.

“How could you even think of that?” I simply couldn’t get over this, the thought still lingered in my mind. I felt like throwing up so badly, but the sickness was beginning to wear off.

Ignoring my question, she gasped. Then the next moment she tried to maintain herself and put her hands over her lap. Why a sudden change of attitude?

As if answer to my question, I noticed Riku peeling himself from the wall, breaking from his thoughtful mood as he walked towards us.

“Six! That’s his sixth time he’s looked at me today!! It must be a record!” Olette whispered to me as I glared at him. After what happened between us yesterday, I would have thought that he didn’t want to talk to me for awhile.

I looked down at his shoes when he stopped in front of us, well mainly me.

His husky voice rang in my reluctant ears as he greeted me. “Hi Kairi.”

I didn’t look up, I didn’t want to or had to. Remaining in silence, I pretended to ignore him. What more did I have to do to get this man away from me? I needed a restraining order…

“We were just talking about you, Riku!” Olette blurted out of nowhere. I wished she hadn’t said that.

Riku sounded surprised as I felt when he heard that. “Really?”

Olette nodded and said gleefully, “We sure were. Except, some of it wasn’t too good.”

I shot a fiery look at Olette, indicating her to stop talking but she didn’t care and continued to blabber on.

“Kairi doesn’t like you,” she muttered in disbelief. “I asked her what about you did she not like though.”

“Hmm,” was all Riku could say.

I unwillingly looked up at him. His aquamarine eyes were an intense shade of black. Beside me, Marluxia shifted in his spot. His seemed to be rigid or tense, hardly moving at all. He looked so still, still as a statue.

“We didn’t say much,” I partially lied. “And we should get going anyhow. Come on, Olette.” I grabbed onto her wrist to drag her with me so that I could prevent her from talking even more, but she refused.

Her hand seemed reluctant to move, but I shoved her anyway. As if in anger at moving her away from the one who she dreamed about all the time, she jerked her wrist out of my grasp, but with so much force, it sent my hand flying in an unwanted direction.

Riku gasped aloud as he cringed. His hand cupped over his groin as he took in a breath of air. I gasped, not believing what happened.

All because of Olette’s rash movement, I hit him in that sensitive place. I panicked with confusion and I didn’t know what to do. Here was my enemy (to me at least) bent down in front of me, holding onto his…thingy…as he withered in pain.

“I’m so sorry, Riku!!” I apologized, with full sympathy in my voice. “I am really, really sorry! I didn’t mean to hit you there.” Yeah, because it was all Olette’s fault! I purposefully let out that part of the story.

“It’s…OK…,” it sounded as if he was wheezing, gasping for air. I think I hit him pretty hard there. I hoped he wasn’t bleeding or nothing was damaged. Oh boy…

“Want me to massage it for you?” Olette offered as she approached him. Oh God.

I pulled her back by her arm in anger and repulsion as I hissed, “Are you out of your mind!?”

Her face turned pink as she realized her mistake and edged away from me. I still couldn’t believe she even suggested that. Luckily, Riku was too distracted with his groin problem that he didn’t hear her.

“I…um…do you want me to help you in some way?” I couldn’t stand his torment. If only he wasn’t standing so close, he might not have gotten hit!

He didn’t say anything as the color from his face was fading away. Unenthusiastically, I got up to hold onto his arm, then pulled him over to the bench were I was sitting. To my surprise, Marluxia was gone when I wanted to look over at him. I couldn’t worry too much about that because of the mess I had to deal with.

“Here, why don’t you just sit for a while,” I said soothingly turning to Riku, “Just sit and don’t move until it feels better.” I didn’t really know what to say, but I don’t think it mattered too much anyhow.

Without resistance, he allowed for me to assist him in sitting down and relaxed a little bit, but I could tell from his face that he was still hurting inside. Olette sat close to him, taking in this rare opportunity to sit with him and talk or whatever.

Rolling my eyes, I hoisted my bag over my shoulder and headed towards the front entrance without looking back at the two. “Sorry again,” I called back as I walked away. I knew it was pointless to drag Olette away from him, so I let her be. But still, I truly did hope that he was OK and that I didn’t damage his organs.

Then it was my turn to cringe as I just realized that my hand touched him in that gross place. I headed straight to the nearest bathroom and washed my hands with soap more than a hundred times before I headed to class.

A dark, gloomy Goth girl was leaning against the bathroom wall across from the sinks, glaring at me. I tried to focus my gaze at the running water instead of the girl’s glare looking at me from the reflection of the mirror. I stole a glance at her and saw that her arms were crossed over her chest and that she had a lot of piercing in her face. A heavy, spiky belt was wrapped around her waist matched her black boots. I looked down at the swirling soapy water again and when I looked up once more, she was gone.

---xxx---

I didn’t see Marluxia until our lunch break. I sat with Olette as usual, but she didn’t seem too boy crazy or cheery like she usually was. The guess I had in mind that explained her mood couldn’t be too far off.

“Hey?” I said as I sat down at our vacant table.

“Hi…”

“So…um…” What to say?

“You hurt Riku pretty badly,” she started in a dreadful tone as if it was completely my fault that happened. “Really badly.” Again with the emphasizing.

“It wasn’t entirely my fault, Olette, you were the one who flung my hand so forcefully. Remember?” I tapped the table top with the tips of my fingers impatiently.

“Well, you shouldn’t have tried to pull me away from Riku! You should have known better…” Olette slouched in her seat and sighed with sadness.

“Oh please,” I murmured quietly. This was highly absurd. If she was going to get so mad at something like this, she must need help.

A chill endured my body as Marluxia touched me when he seated himself next to me. His cool touch traced down my arm and to my hand. I wanted to ask him where he’d been, but of course I couldn’t do that, but I couldn’t resist.

Olette seemed to dazed into her own world, lost in her reverie, one probably about Riku.

Taking advantage of this moment, I looked at Marluxia and whispered really, really quietly, “Where the heck did you go? Do you know how lonely I was---”

“Kairi?”

I twirled around back to face Olette who looked at me as if I was crazy. “Who are you talking to?” She looked behind me but saw nothing, and obviously she wasn’t able to see Marluxia either.

“Um…”

She sighed again, not caring anymore. “You need to help me.”

“How?” I pretended to hold interest. She looked blankly ahead of her again and I turned back to Marluxia.

His grin melted my heart and suddenly the anxiousness about his whereabouts drifted away.

“Here you go Olette,” a familiar voice said behind me.

Looking away from Marluxia’s delicious face, I saw Eric handing Olette a thin stack of papers. He stood in his dorky fashion as Olette gladly accepted the papers. She gestured him away and he was gone after stealing a quick glance at me.

“What’s that?” I asked curiously. My hand reached for fries that were always placed in front of Olette, but I touched an empty space on the table instead of a heaping plate of oily fries.

I looked in front of Olette. Hmm, no fries or pizza today. In fact, she was eating nothing. Well, that sucked. We usually shared something together. I retracted my hand and refrained from pestering Olette about some stupid fries. My stomach growled and I had a bad craving for Coke.

“Homework.”

“Homework?” I quickly forgot about my hunger. “Your homework?”

“Yep.” She placed the papers carefully in her bag for safe keeping after flapping the pages in front of me.

“Wait…you’re getting some nerd to do your homework for you?” This was unexpected, or maybe I just didn’t want to believe that this was the kind of person Olette was.

“It’s not like they have anything better to do, so it doesn’t really matter.” She flashed a reassuring smile, as if it justified cheating. “Using people once in a while is fine, Kairi. It’s how things get done. Everyone does it.”

“Olette, I really don’t think---”

“Hello Olette,” that disgusting voice greeted, the very same voice I hated to hear. Then she spat my name out as if it was some sort of vermin, “Kairi.”

I craned my head towards the source of the voice, although I already knew from who it came from. My teeth clenched hard together, grinding noisily inside of my mouth.

“Naminé!” Olette exclaimed back in return, her sullen mood vanishing.

I glared at my enemy as she sat across from us. She had a friend too, Selphie I believe her name was, sat beside her as well after Naminé ordered her to.

Naminé ignored my presence completely, I felt the anger boiling in my blood. My breathing began to get dense, why the hell was she sitting here?

“I just wanted to remind you,” she spoke directly at Olette, “about the party coming up. You’re coming right?”

Olette seemed to fidget almost uncontrollably, her eyes darted anxiously from me to Naminé then back to me. She looked quite nervous as if she was hiding something from me.

And she was right.

What the hell was this devil doing talking to Olette about some party? Automatically, I was in defensive mode. I didn’t want Olette doing anything with this girl, nothing at all. She was no good, but the only person who seemed to see through her was me.

I perked up, wanting to catch every word, every movement, every gesture. Leaning forward, I kept my eye on the devil herself and Olette as I pretended not to care about some stupid party they were planning to attend to.

“Um…,” was all Olette could say. Her eyes didn’t leave my gaze, that’s when I decided to make a move.

“I’m sorry, what party?” I asked Olette, and only to Olette. “You’re going with Naminé?”

The devil snorted with laughter at my words. “Of course she’s coming with me. Obviously someone wasn’t aware of it. Looks like Kairi didn’t get invited.”

My hand that was lying on the table clenched into a tight fist, my teeth grinded together even harder. Keeping my cool was harder than I thought it was going to be.

Ignoring her remark, I continued to press Olette with my inquires. “So are you going to this party?”

“Yeah…you want to come too?” Olette spoke feebly, her words broke in the end.

“I’ll have to---”

“I heard Riku was coming,” Naminé rudely interrupted me. “You have to wear the best dress you own, alright Olette? I think it will attract his attention.” She smirked when she said this, as if I missed some inside joke. Gross, another Riku fan girl, just what we needed in this town.

Olette frowned, “Didn’t you hear what happened to Riku?”

Naminé shook her head in worrisome. “What happened to him? He’s still coming to the party right?”

“He got hit.” Olette fiddled with her fingers, not knowing how to explain further.

“Who hit him?” The devil cried in worry, “We’ll make whoever did that pay!!”

“Kairi,” Olette began again, going back to a gloomy mood, “hit him in that special place where guys are prune to weakness.”

I thought it was a weird way she put that, but whatever, it worked because the demon glared devilishly at me with those cunning eyes as if I had committed a crime.

“How could you hurt him like that?” she hissed at me, looking at me for the first time she sat with us. “You heartless being!”

“Me?! It was purely an accident. I bet he’s fine by now, geez, don’t get so worked up about it.” I wanted to hit her so badly, but of course I didn’t do that.

“Yeah right,” Naminé spat out in doubt, then a smirk came on her face. “He must not like you too much now, does he?” I bet this gave her comfort, less competition to get to him. How utterly pathetic.

“I don’t think I care,” I retorted in return. “We don’t even talk much.”

Then, as if to make my words meaningless, Riku came and sat beside me. What would this show? That we were friends or something?!

The attitude between the two girls changed quickly. They began to get jittery and flattered that he chose to sit at our table. I rolled my eyes in abhorrence and wanted to move away but if I did that, it would show defeat from my side in Naminé’s eyes. That was something I couldn’t handle.

“Riku, I’m so glad you’re here!” Naminé exclaimed in pure astonishment.

“Hello Anime,” he looked at Naminé aimlessly then at Selphie, not knowing her name I believe, “Hi.” Then he glanced at Olette and said in an uninterested tone, “Hey there, Omelet.”

I refrained from laughing at the names he couldn’t remember correctly but when I saw Naminé’s flustered face and Olette’s face sadden, I was almost delighted. Well, of course I did feel bad for Olette since he called her ‘Omelet’ but it was hilarious that he got the devil’s name wrong too.

He turned to me, “Hey, Kairi.” Looks like he knows my name perfectly.

“Hi.” I tried to sound indifferent, but I wanted to thank him for calling her ‘Anime’. I know it’s not that big of a deal, but Naminé got pretty insulted, and that’s all that counts the most.

“Can I----?” He was stopped short.

Of course, the devil had to interrupt again, not that I minded since it was just Riku. “You’re still going to the party right?!”

Riku turned from me to her, his mind thoughtful. “Not sure yet.”

Naminé’s face fell instantly. If he didn’t go, there was no point for her in going either. Hah. “Why not?” She tried hard not to sound whinny and maintain a straight face.

“If Kairi comes with me, then I’ll go.” He turned to me and winked naughtily. The corners of his lips curled to a mischievous smile. He leaned in closer and whispered in my ear so that no one else could hear but me. “You owe me for what happened.”

Why you! I will never go with you to anything! And what happened earlier wasn’t completely my fault. I wanted to slap him, and I would have but when I saw the jealousy arising in Naminé’s face, that changed my mind. Maybe I should go along with what Riku said, just this once. The anger that was developing in the devil was so totally worth it.

“I’ll go with you,” I faked a genuine smile at him. I nicked a quick glance at Naminé, she looked really angry. Ha-ha-ha.

Riku seemed surprised, his eyes widened. “Really? You will? Are you serious?”

“I already said yes, stop asking me about it!” I muttered through closed teeth. This boy wasn’t getting it.

“Great!”

I rolled my eyes again and glanced at Olette.

“Nice idea, Kairi!” she whispered to me in my ear as she leaned towards me. “Bring him with us! This is perfect!”

Well, that’s not what I had in mind, but OK. As long as Naminé was drenched in envy and jealousy, that’s the only priority.

The majority of the students in the cafeteria began to get up and leave for their following class. Naminé, Selphie, and Olette did the same. I followed close to Olette, trying to protect her from the evil spirit swarming around us. This really was bad. I didn’t think that these two would be talking and going to parties together!! I had to put an end to this. Getting Naminé jealous was part of the plan, but that still doesn’t solve the problem of getting her away from Olette, or Olette away from Naminé.

I couldn’t let this beast repeat the miserable past. Not again.

I knew that when Olette and I were alone, we’d have to talk and I mean talk about this risky dilemma. I needed to tell her that Naminé is not the kind of person she’d want to be with, but it’s the matter of how and when. Somehow, I needed to get Olette to think badly of Naminé, and I needed to find out just why they were talking with one another.

“Wait, Kairi,” Riku called from behind us as we were walking away. He stood in one place, looking at me ignoring the others. “Can I talk to you?”

Not this crap again.

Olette nudged me gently and said, “Go Kairi!! Find out what he wants to tell you.” I noticed her smile falter a little bit as she said this to me. I peered over at Naminé, her face was flushed with the color of greed and bitterness. Maybe I should go…

I looked around for Marluxia, the one I wanted to know what he thought about this. He stood next to me and whispered, “I’ll keep an eye on Olette and Naminé, you can go ahead. I want to know what he‘s so eager to talk about with you.”

Against my better judgment I went along with what he suggested, but I trusted him. Walking away from Olette, Selphie, and the devil, I approached closer to Riku with every step. My face was emotionless and careless.

“What?” I said in inauspiciously to him, standing a few feet away from him.

He sighed with what seemed to be victory. “Let’s talk outside.”

Outside? Why?

“Huh?” I wasn’t expecting any of this. “Why outside?”

Paying no attention to my needy questions, he continued to coax me. “Let’s go before we get caught.”

“Caught! I have a class to go to. I’m not going to go anywhere with you.” I placed my hands firmly on my hips and waited for an explanation.

“But it’s really important,” he continued.

I peered back at the girls and Marluxia. Olette gestured me to go. Naminé continued to look petrified at my encounter with Riku while Marluxia stood silently.

“Alright, but let’s hurry.” I had a feeling I was going to regret this soon…

Riku smiled smugly at me. Then he dared to reach for my wrist and placed an iron grip around it. No matter how hard I tried to slip my hand out of his, my efforts were completely useless.

“Let go of me!” I cried softly as he dragged me down a hall of lockers.

Looking back at me, he placed a finger on his lips and told me to be quiet. The nerve of him.

Upon reaching a corner, he stopped and pulled me hastily against a wall. He pressed his body next to mine, shoulder to shoulder, and looked as if he was holding his breath.

“What is it?” I mouthed for him to read my lips.

“Principle,” he whispered back being careful not to be overheard.

We were still for a few more moments as I listened to the soft background of adults and administrators conversing. The late bell rang through the lifeless halls. Now I was beginning to wish I hadn’t taken the offer to do this. We were going to get caught and wind up in detention, a place I have never been before, and it’s all Riku‘s fault.

Riku seemed to become restless too because the voices on the other side did not cease. Then to make things more complicated, we heard distinctive footsteps approaching us from somewhere. I looked right and left but saw no one, that meant that they were coming from another hallway towards us. Damn, I should have known better than to do this.

Riku whispered some unintelligible words to me then out of nowhere he picked me up from under my legs and cradled me in his arms. I squirmed for him to let me down, but he whispered hoarsely to me again, “Stop that! Just pretend that you’re sick. Close your eyes and look dead.”

“Dead?”
“Just do it, damn it!”

I obeyed his stupid orders and relaxed my body in his grasp. I could feel a smirk from him drilling down on me as he pressed my body closer to his hard chest. I could smell the cologne that he used from his clothes, the scent fused my mind because it was so strong! My nose wrinkled up, he most certainly had bad taste in cologne. I liked Marluxia’s scent better.

The unknown footsteps seemed to approach closer to us, Riku had already started walking down the hall. A few strands of my hair bounced on my face with each step he took. But then he halted as a voice stopped him.

I didn’t dare myself to breath normally or even open my eyes a little just to get a peek at who it was. My head hung back loosely as he shifted my neck slightly under his arm in a sturdier position.

“Riku,” a mature female’s voice said, “Do you have a hall pass?“ The next instant, she let out a small astonished gasp when she saw him holding me. “What happened?”

Riku chuckled in return and gave his fake story. “Oh nothing. I am taking her to the nurse’s room since she passed out in the bathroom. I don’t have a pass, sorry.”

“She looks unconscious!” the woman exclaimed. I felt a hand touch the surface of my arm. “I hope she gets well soon. Please, carry on. You don’t need a hall pass, this seems quite urgent.”

The woman proceeded walking ahead, her footsteps sounded fainter and fainter while Riku continued to walk while holding me firmly. I opened my eyes, glowering at him.

“Put me down now,” I commanded sternly so that he could end this silly charade. I didn’t favor his petty excuse either.

“No.” He looked down at me to see my eyes filled with fiery flames, then quickly added, “Not yet. We’re almost there.”

I refused to make a ruckus, in case someone else would come by too and hear us bickering. I sighed with frustration. Whatever he wanted to talk to me about better be worth it. Seriously.

His bare lower torso was chafing against my arm as he continued his way towards an exit. The warm temperature of his body rubbed off me. I was so used to Marluxia’s stone cold body that the warmth of Riku felt quite foreign.

I was so distracted from worrying about Olette and Naminé that it took me awhile to become aware of a soothing breeze blowing through my hair. We were finally outside, the schooling building behind us began to get smaller and smaller in the distance.

“You can put me down,” I said, breaking the eerie silence between us. “Now!”

Ignoring my pleas as usual, he paced himself down the streets. I craned my head around to find ourselves in the Market Place. I sighed and rested my head against his hard, stiff chest. He thinks he’s so cool carrying me like this. Unbelievable.

The hand that held me from below my knees slowly began to descend down my leg. His steel grip fastened around me didn’t allow me to move freely, so I threw a fist on his chest. “What do you think you’re doing?”

Quickly, he slide his hand back in place as he peered at me with an unembarrassed smile, then continued to looked ahead of him. “Sorry, it just slipped.”

Stupid boy, it didn’t just ‘slip’.

My stomach growled and rumbled. I was flushed with embarrassment when the roars quieted down. Riku chuckled out loud as I pressed a hand above my empty stomach. I was so hungry.

“You want me to get you something?” he asked politely, coming to a complete stop as he lowered me down to my feet.

I tucked a strand of hair behind my ear and out of my red face. “Um, no thanks. I’m fine.”

“Come on,” he gestured regardless of what I said. “I’ll pay for it, whatever you want.”

Alright, so I was thankful that he allowing time for me to eat something and that he was paying, but I wasn’t so sure if this was a good idea. I followed close to him towards some fast food restaurant.

“What would you like?” Riku beamed at me and waited patiently.

I pondered over what I desired. “Fries.” I missed the salty taste and how good they tasted even though it was so unhealthy. That didn’t matter at the moment.

“That’s it?” he raised a brow. “Nothing else?”

“Nope.” I didn’t want him to spend too much money on me. I made a mental note in mind to bring my own money later on.

Shrugging he went inside as I lingered out in the nice weather. I didn’t really feel like going there anyhow. Riku came back out within a few minutes but with more food than what I had asked for. He carried a large paper bag and gave it to me.

I peered inside to find fries, a chicken sandwich, a parfait, and a large Sprite. “What’s all this?” I asked in puzzlement.

“Nothing much.” He smiled and shoved his hands in the pockets of his baggy pants and walked away.

I stood in place looking out after him.

“You coming?” He peered over his back at me and waited. When I didn’t say anything or move, he said in a mischievous tone, “Don’t make me carry you again.”

That got me walking. There was absolutely no way I was going to get carried by him again, I didn’t want him to get another chance to touch me.

I paced behind him as he walked in a steady place. I ate as we walked to who knows where. As I trudged behind, I had to stare at the back of his head for the longest time. I was even sipping my Sprite noisily because it was almost empty. His hands were still in his pockets as he walked, his sneakers dragging against the cobblestone pathway. I noticed his sagging pants again.

“You need a belt,” I commented after awhile. “You need one really badly.”

“Yeah?” he replied absentmindedly. “You think so?”

“I know so.” I answered, not understanding how he didn’t see that he needed to pull his pants up. “Why do you let them hang like that?”

“I don’t know,” he mused. “I just do.”

Another moments of silence. I kept a constant distance between us as he walked ahead of me. A few things popped in mind that I wanted to discuss.

“Sorry about what happened this morning,” I lamented as the awkward silence had begun to build up again. “I hope you don’t have trouble walking.”

Come to think of it, he looked perfectly fine as he walked along. Maybe I was too paranoid.

“Don’t worry about that,” he assured me as he looked at me halfway while we passed some more shops and buildings and headed up a ramp.

I couldn’t hold my curiosity any longer. “I didn’t…damage anything right?” I sounded stupid and regretted asking a silly, confidential question like that.

He sighed and shook his head, but I couldn’t see his face expression. “No, you didn’t.”

“Oh.” I should just have shut up then and there, but I didn’t.

“Thanks for the food,” I said when he didn’t say anything more himself. “It was really thoughtful of you.”

“No problem.”

“So, like, what is it that you wanted to talk to me about?”

“Just wait.”

Wait? Wait?! I’ve been waiting for a long time. Whatever, I didn’t care as long I was eating something.

“Fine,” I grumbled under my breath, taking a spoonful of parfait. It looked like he still wanted to take me to some quiet place to talk. A few women looked at me in an awkward way when they saw me trailing after Riku, heck, it looked like I was some kind of cheap stalker.

“Are you going to walk behind me the entire time?” he asked curiously, taking me by surprise.

“Yeah.” I didn’t want to walk with him side by side. I refused to do so.

He stopped walking and so did I. He turned around to face me, his eyes drilling into mine. He pouted slightly, “You sure?”

I pointed a finger at my semi-angry face. “Does this look unsure to you?”

“No.”

“Alrighty then, lets go.” I gestured him to continue walking and he did when he turned around away from me.

“You cut class often don’t you?” I asked out of wonderment. It looked as if he had done this more than once, a professional class cutter.

“You could say that,” he responded, emitting a small chuckle too.

I snorted. “Your grades must be suffering, right?” The chances of class cutters getting high grades were pretty low.

“They’re actually doing pretty good,” he said casually as if we were talking about the nice weather we were having when we turned a corner.

I doubt that, he’s just lying…he has straight Es and Ds and maybe Cs.

None of us talked again and I was running out of things to say, not like it really mattered anyway. Who’d want to waste time talking to him? He can’t even hold a simple conversation.

The streets were barely occupied, everyone was either at work or school. I sighed thinking of all the things I was missing in class and how Olette and the devil were progressing on with me gone.

“Where we going?” I asked when I couldn’t stand the silence any more.

“The clock tower.”

“You bring me all the way here to take me to some boring clock tower?” I stopped walking behind him and scowled.

“No, I brought you out here to talk to you at the clock tower,” he replied without looking back. “Keep walking, Kairi,” he said when he heard the missing sound of my footsteps.

Grunting, I obeyed. I was about done eating, so I threw away the bag and whatnot in a near by trash can as we approached the tall tower that over looked the vast town. The sun illuminated the entire structure, it glistened magnificently in the sunlight. The large hands of the clock cast a short, direct shadow on the white surface behind it.

Riku took a seat at the first stone step trailing down from beneath the clock tower and patted an empty place next to him. Sitting carefully beside him, I patiently waited for him to start speaking.

“Nice weather today, isn’t it?” he started when the both of us were settled.

I nodded, still suspicious as to why we were even here in the first place. “It is.”

The sun’s rays were welcoming, accompanied by a playful breeze. Not a single white cloud was dark in the light blue sky. It was the perfect weather.
“This is how it usually is in Twilight Town, we never have had these weird rains that we’re having now…”

“I guess.” Your point?

“Think of something…” He paused to think of the right word to complete the sentence. “Think of something sad.”

“Sad?” I pondered over what he just asked me to do. “Why?”

“Just do it.” His eyes were fastened to the clear, undisturbed sky as he spoke. He slowly closed his eyes and waited. “Well?”

“Um…Ok, hold on.” I thought hard to myself about something sad. I thought of how Riku looked like a girl from far away, that was sad. I thought of his sagging pants that needed a belt, his boxers were showing a great deal. That was indeed a sad thing, his parents must have had some problems and issues raising him along the way.

“Are you thinking of something sad yet?” he asked after I finished my last thought.

“Yes, yes I am.” I answered back, but I wanted to ask him why the heck was all this nonsense necessary. His face was so intent and serious, I was a little intimidated from asking and continued to do what he asked of.

He opened his eyes again and observed the sky intently. His brows ceased with doubt, as if something wasn’t going the way he had hoped it for. “What did you think of?”

“Just…stuff,” I hesitated at first, not knowing if my answer was even valid to begin with. “S-stuff about you.” There I said it.

He sighed with great frustration, like I had just screwed up something. Looking at me for a brief moment, I saw a smile etched on his face. “When I said sad, I wasn’t talking about…well, I don’t know what you were really thinking about, but I don’t think it was that kind of sad I was referring to.”

Heh. An invisible slap in the face. Whatever, people make mistakes.

“Oh,” I said to him. “Well, what do you mean then?”

“Sadness, you know, grief, something that makes you feel unhappy or sorrowful, woeful. A memory, anything that makes you feel that type of sadness, think about it right now.” He turned back to the sky and waited patiently for me to start thinking.

I made an airy sound with my lips. “No! Do you seriously want me to go into depression mode?” Stupid boy, if he wanted some sorrow, why the heck doesn’t he do it himself?

“That would be helpful actually, go for it.”

I didn’t know whether he was serious or sarcastic, but I was against it, against it completely.

“I don’t want to.” Thinking about sad thoughts wasn’t a hobby of mine.

He leaned back with his hands stretched out behind him. With his head tilted slightly back, some of his silver bangs covered his eyes partially, giving him a mysterious look. Rays of the sky glistened on his face when he took a breath. “Please? I’d very much appreciate it if you cooperated with me for at least five minutes. Is that too much to ask?”

“Fine,” I spat out quickly before he started to make more sappy pleas, anything to stop that. “Just give me a moment.”

I took in a breath of the sweet, autumn air and closed my eyes. The intense rays of the sun beat against my face, its warmth heating my skin as the cool breeze swayed my hair.

At first I couldn’t decided on what to think of but I let it come to me gradually. A sad memory, one that caused me grief or sorrow…did I have such a memory that would fulfill that need?

“I’m so sorry, Kairi,” Sora whispered in my ear as he knelt down beside me on top of the dying grass. He placed a warm hand behind my back, I quickly turned around to him, embracing him in a tight, choking hug and didn’t let go for the longest time ever. Fresh tears slide down my cheeks and fell upon his colorful clothing along with my sobs sinking into his clothes.

Peeling myself from him reluctantly, I peered down at my parent’s gravestones. How lonely and neglected they looked. The rose I had put beside the engraved headstone on the first day of their burial seemed to be withered and wilted, however the petals stayed intact. The parched forest green looked just like the gasping red petals.

The cold, slicing harsh wind broke me from my sorrowful thought, the wretched memory of my visiting to my parent’s grave with Sora. A few tears had slide down my face as I reopened my eyes. The sky had become murky and a deep shade of gray. Dead leaves swirled around past us as the wind picked up.

With the back of my hand, I wiped the unwanted tears and continued to look at the sky. Sneaking a peek at Riku, I found him doing the same. The redness in my face began to disperse when he glanced at me, smiling.

My lips stayed in their position, frowning. I shouldn’t have done what he said, now the thought of my parents dead filled my mind, that same miserable grief consuming me like it always had. Refusing to smile in return, I grunted and looked away from his face.

“Kairi?” he called my name in distress. He struggled for a string of words as he hesitated.

I spoke before him. “Happy now?” I forced as much repulsion in those two words as much as possible.

“Hey, what’s wrong?” he continued to press on as he edged closer to me.

Great, just what I needed.

I pressed my lips down together tighter and turned my back to him. I didn’t want to look at his stupid face again. My heart began to ache and the only ones who could have eased the pain was either not here with me at the moment or living in a different place. But no, here I am with this fool.

I felt Riku’s hand nudging my shoulder briefly and gently as I ignored him. “Don’t touch me,” I croaked in a broken voice as I tried hard to hold back tears.

“Kairi, I didn’t mean for you to feel like this,” he said behind me as small drizzles of water landed on my skin from the sky.

Taking in a deep breath and exhaling slowly, I got myself together before I broke down. “I’m fine,” I lied partially. Of course I wasn’t OK, I was trying to be a good sport about it.

Neither of us spoke a word after that, Riku began to marvel at the sky again. I felt a sudden warmness as I felt his body brushing against mine. Peering over my shoulder, I found him sitting next to me, closer than before.

My shirt and body began to get damp as the drizzles turned from tiny specks to a decent sized rain drop. The coolness in the wind became warmer. Strands of my hair flickered with its direction. Riku’s bangs did the same.

“Do you see the sky? The sudden change in weather?” he asked, breaking the silence after moments had passed between us.

He sat with his knees against his chest and his shoulder brushing against my shoulder, but I didn’t complain about him touching me because I didn’t want him to move. Not yet, he sort of pushed away the grieving thought from my mind, a small distraction if you will.

My eyes traced his arm to his concentrated face. I blinked, bringing myself back into reality. “What about it?”

A wave of surprise came across his face as I said this to him. “You don’t notice the sudden change?”

I shrugged, not really caring. “The weather has been crazy like this for the past few days. Today is just the same as the rest.”

“Exactly! The weather has been crazy like this for the past few days,” he repeated my words. “Just five minutes ago it was sunny and the weather was beautiful. But when you thought of a sad memory, the clouds became gray and it began to rain a bit.” He held his hand out, feeling the drops of cold rain slip down onto his hands and through his fingers.

“Riku,” I looked at him in a weird way. “The weather doesn’t change because of what I think or how I feel inside.”

“No?”

“No.” I shook my head with confidence. The weather simply couldn’t have been changing due to my emotions. It just couldn’t, that was impossible.

“Tell me then, what were you feeling…lets see, about ten minutes ago?” He grinned, waiting for me to answer.

“I was cheerful I suppose.” I longed for that emotion again at that moment.

“Yeah, and the sun was shining and everything was fun and happy.”

“Whatever. You’re point?”

“You were happy, the weather was beautiful.” He smiled wider as he got closer to his conclusion. “You’re sad right now and look at the sky.”

Taking a moment to grab my hand, clearly against my wishes, he held it out above his. “It’s raining. There were no rain clouds in the sky before. None.” The drops of rain splashed onto my hand, a small puddle formed.

My hand dropped when he let it go. I stared at him doubtfully. “That doesn’t prove anything.”

“Are you blind woman?” he sighed in defeat and tried to attempt to get his point across one more time. “Here’s my theory: you’re happy, the weather is perfect. But when you’re sad, the weather starts to rain and the sun hides behind dark clouds.”

“That’s a stupid theory,” I remarked when I took in his thought. That was utter nonsense. “And why would the---” He cut me off before I could finish my sentence.

“Think of something that makes you happy, any content memories,” he asked, eager for me to start getting ‘happy’ again.

“Why?” I didn’t want to think of any memories anymore. I just didn’t want to, my heart still hurt.

“Please.” He pouted his lips and begged. Agh, anything to make that stop.

I sighed in annoyance. “Alright…”

Closing my eyes, I let the gentle rain pour down my face. I thought of Sora and me spending time at our special island when we still children. The smile on Sora’s face warmed my heart inside. A small smile of my own spread across my face as I thought this.

Suddenly, the faint rain that was streaming had ceased and then stopped altogether. The familiar warmth from the sun stroked my face dry. When I opened my eyes, the cunning wind had stopped just like the rain and the sun was shining brightly in front of white clouds. The change had occurred in a matter of a few minutes.

“See!! You see that Kairi?” He hopped up from his spot next to me and stood in front of me. I had to crane my neck when I looked up at him.

“So?”

“That proves it, the weather has a lot of influence from you, from your emotions.” He smiled greatly all because he thought that he proved his silly little theory that sounded like total crap to me.

“And why would the weather be controlled by me?” Again, this had to be impossible. No one had power like that.

He sighed as he retook his seat next to me. “Well, Kairi, I was hoping you would tell me that yourself.”

My guard went up all of a sudden. “What do you mean?”

“You know exactly what I mean.” He stared at me for the longest time before speaking again. I tried my best to keep cool and look as innocent as possible. “When I meet you that day, I felt this weird aura around you that has been pestering me for awhile. And sometimes, I still feel it around you, but for some reason, I don’t feel it now.”

“What aura?” I wasn’t following him at all. He lost me completely. “You’re not making any sense.”

“An aura, you know, a dark spirit. I can sense it.”

“Is that why your eyes change colors, from a greenish blue to a deep black?” I looked at his eyes again when he glanced at me and they were aquamarine at the moment.

“Oh, so you noticed that?” He seemed like he was surprised. Idiot…

I nodded my head, “Yeah, it’s hard to miss.”

“I didn’t know you looked at my eyes enough to notice, no one else notices…so why you?” He placed a thoughtful hand underneath his chin, thinking. “You’re not supposed to see that, actually, no one is. So how’s this possible?”

“Um, well, I don’t know the answer to that. And why shouldn’t be able to see the change of color in your eyes?” That was dumb, all anyone had to do was look at his eyes. Sometimes they’re green and sometimes they’re black.

He ignored my question like he always did.

“Is there something that you want to tell me?” Leaning closer to me, I could feel his peppermint breath against my face. “Something that, oh I don’t know, something that doesn’t belong in Twilight Town?”

My heart froze as the color from my face drained. I trembled before I answered him feebly. I had to think through my words cautiously if I was going to sound genuinely “innocent” about anything “strange” and to protect Marluxia’s identity.

“Besides the drama I‘m drowning in, there’s nothing in my life.” Did that sound good? It worked because he suddenly changed the subject.

“Oh yeah,” he leaned back away from me, allowing me to take a breath. “That reminds me, what was that all about, going with me to that party or whatever?”

Taking advantage of the fact that his mind got distracted easily, I gave a shot at my reply. “You don’t want to go with me? Ok, that’s fine,” I said in a ‘whatever you want’ tone to get his attention.

“No, no, that’s not where I’m getting at.” He chuckled as he wrapped an arm over my shoulders. I shrugged it off and glared at him, telling him to get his stupid self off of me. “After yesterday, why would even think about it?”

No answer. What was I supposed to tell the boy? That I was using him to make Naminé jealous because she obsesses over him and talks to me when I have no interest in him? No, I couldn’t say that. My silence puzzled him, but he wasn’t too far off in his guess.

“Does this have to do something with Naminé?”

“Maybe.” Oh he’s good. Well, he’s getting warmer.

“You know, you shouldn’t judge people so soon.”

I snorted. He didn’t know what the hell he was talking about. He was getting colder now to my reasoning.

“I see, so, you’ve already passed that stage?” He sighed again and looked at me doubtfully.

“You think?” I picked up a small stone and threw it across the sidewalk. My eyes trailed the stone as it skid all the way to the other side.

“People deserve second chances.”

Oh shut up. You don’t know anything you dumb fool.

Sighing dramatically, I hoisted myself up and glanced at my watch.

“Holy crap,” I cried when I saw what time it was: 4:30 p.m.

Grabbing my bag and tossing it over my shoulder I hastily walked away from Riku and headed towards Market Place.

“Wait up,” Riku called from behind me. I heard his running as he got closer. “What happened?”

“Nothing. I have to go now.” I didn’t want to spend another second with him. Such a complete waste of time. He made me feel worse inside. First with the ridiculous memory reviving, then with the ‘Naminé should get a second chance’ crap.

“Well, think about what I told you today.” He halted midway from where he was but I continued to storm away. “The weather is changing based on you, remember that! There‘s something dark taking over this world and you could be helpful if you‘d just…”

His voiced drowned away when I turned a corner and dashed down the semi crowded street when I was out from his sight. I didn’t want to hear any more about this weather changing crap anymore, it’s not true. I know he’s lying, lying about everything. Whatever the hell he said was all lies and untrue.

---xxx---

It was pretty late in the night when I was just finishing my homework. Studying and doing homework seemed to distract me temporarily. When I was done, I pushed everything aside and glanced at my watch. An involuntary scowl came across my face when I saw the time.

I headed downstairs and plopped myself on the couch in the living room. Flipping through random channels of the T.V., I waited patiently for his arrival. The lights from the T.V. bounced off from the walls as I tried to find something good to put on. I hated it when it got utterly silent in the house, the soft background of voices and noises fixed that problem right away. Time couldn’t have gone by any slower than at the pace it was going at now. A drowsy feeling washed over me, my eyes struggled to stay open and wide away.

“Kairi?”

I almost jumped out from my seat when Marluxia called my name. It took me a moment to calm down and for my heart to beat to a normal rate. Leon had gone out late again with his friends and the entire house was silent, lifeless. The sudden outburst was not expected. Twirling to Marluxia, I wore an austere face.

“I waited for a very long time for you.” My voice was low and steady as I got up from the couch and took a step towards him. He by the doorway and looked sheepishly at me.

Droplets of rain simmered in his hair, they looked like sparkling diamonds. His cloak looked damp even though it was black. A clear water puddle began to form beneath him as he stayed in place.

“Where were you?” I croaked and waited impatiently for him to give me a concrete answer, if he had one. “It’s almost midnight, I’m sure you know.”

Approaching me, he wrapped me in a firm hug. Water dripped from the spikes of his hair and trickled down my own along with my skin. I hugged him back despite of my mixed emotions of worry and anger towards him for leaving me alone for too long.

“You know I hate it when I’m alone,” I breathed into his chest when I pressed my cheek against his chest. He grasped me harder.

“I’m sorry,” his whispered slowly and rocked me gently in a steady motion to and fro.

“It’s ok,” I whispered back, not wanting to break the calm mood set in the room, between us. I closed my eyes when he gently kissed my hair.

Sighing, I regretted getting so frustrated at him so suddenly. I should have been more patiently, more understanding. He has a good reason I’m sure.

“I trailed Naminé and Olette for you when you didn’t come back.”

“What do you mean when I didn’t come back?” I looked up at him from our hug, his face was partially illuminated by my desk lamp for that was the only light in my room that was on.

“I waited for you by the gate when hours passed by at the time you left. You didn’t come, so I trailed those two girls.” He stopped rocking me, but continued to hold on.

“Sorry, I was just, still with Riku at the time.” I didn’t want to focus too much on him, but I felt so sorry for making Marluxia wait also.

“No need to be sorry,” he chuckled softly and sighed. “It’s not your fault.”

Breaking our hug, I pulled him over to the couch and made him sit down even though he was still dripping. The furniture would get damp, but it would dry off itself. I couldn’t care about that at a time like this.

The lights from the T.V. bounced off from the walls as I tried to find something good to put on. I hated it when gets utterly silent in the house, the soft background of TV fixed that problem right away.

I snuggled closer to him as he placed an arm around me. My head rested peacefully upon his shoulder. His pleasant fragrant eased my hurting heart. The touch of his skin comforted me as I wriggled my arm around his waist.

“So tell me,” I started in an anxious voice, “what went on with Naminé and Olette?”

“Are you sure you’d like to hear about it?” His musical voice left me in awe.

“Yes I think I do. I want to know. Tell me about that and what they wrote in that note they were passing to each other.” I had to get this off my mind, I had to know and if I didn’t, I would never be at rest.

Marluxia hesitated and thought deeply about how he was going to tell his account of events. “After you left, neither of them talked in class. Olette seemed down and Naminé didn’t look too thrilled either.”

I smirked, she was definitely jealous, no doubt about that. Me being with Riku is the perfect thing to pester her after what she did.

“Then, Olette waited for you at the bench you guys sit at every morning. She paced around a bit and kept waiting for your return. I believe that she was anxious to find out what Riku wanted with you and what was taking you so long.”

Poor Olette, I should have called or something, it just didn’t occur to me when I got home. I was too furious to think or do anything.

“When you didn’t come, Naminé approached her. She talked her into going shopping with her. Olette agreed at the two went to a fancy dress store where they spent a lot of money. The two spent some time in other stores as well. I followed behind them as they talked. Naminé told Olette that you liked Riku and that she thinks that you’re not being a true friend. She said that if you were a hypocrite because you always talk bad about Riku, but yet there you were, going way with him.”

He paused as I took all this in. The devil got to work and so fast too. That’s how she worked, she’d get to her victim and fill them with garbage and lies about the other person, in this case that would be me. I didn’t take this to heart, but I had began to speculate a way to get Olette to not like Naminé. I was, however, worried that Olette would stray away from me and believe everything Naminé told her. I didn’t like Riku and I wasn’t being a hypocrite about it, I know that if I explain, she’d understand.

“They walked around talking about you and Riku for a long time along with buying useless items. It was tiring, but here I am, coming home late to you.”

It was interesting how he called this home his home as well. I liked that, it made me feel that he considered my house as some place that he belonged to. I smiled, though he couldn’t see me.

“What about the note?” I couldn’t forget about that either.

“Olette was writing to Naminé inquiring about what had happened between you and Naminé. She wanted to find out since you weren’t telling her.”

“And what did Naminé say to that?”

“She wrote back saying that---” He stopped short, as if he didn’t want to finish his sentence.

I gently nudged him, “What did she write??” I longed to find out. His slow answers were eating me.

“She told Olette that you were making a big deal out of something that never happened and that you were lying so that people could feel sorry for you.” I saw a frown on his face. I couldn’t blame him, he knew that it may be painful for me to hear those words.

Blood boiled through my veins. I made a big deal out of something that never happened? The nerve of her, how dare she. I couldn’t believe this. It was so unfair. I hadn’t explained my side of the story to anyone yet, but here she is, telling people that whatever had happened were all lies made up by me. And for what? For people to feel sorry for me. Such low acts I’ve never witnessed before. She thinks she could just erase the past by telling people that everything’s a lie?

“Don’t let it get to you,” he assured me softly. “I don’t want to see you get hurt.”

I shook my head, no, he was right. I shouldn’t let this get to me. It was something that would make be sick, emotionally and mentally. I had to fix thing in a calm and collected manner, without making any rash decisions.

I glanced at his face. Something about it told me that he wanted to find out what Riku wanted to tell me.

“Riku told me a theory of his,” I said, changing the subject. I didn’t want to talk about the devilish demon anymore. Not now at least. “He told me that the weather was changing because of me.”

“You?” Marluxia raised a brow in curiosity.

“Yeah, he said that it was sunny when I was in a good mood and that it rained when I was sad or gloomy.” My finger twirled a lock of hair as I spoke. This sounded to illogical.

Marluxia didn’t say anything so I asked him myself about what he thought of the matter. “So, what do you think about it? Is it true?”

“Don’t listen to him,” he whispered to me in return. Hmm, ok, so I guess I won’t listen to him anyway. Riku’s just trying to creep me out because he’s shallow like that. I know he’s probably laughing at me now behind my back.

“He also wanted to know about you.”

“Me?”

“Well, he didn’t ask directly, but he was trying to find out some dark thing that’s coming in this town. He doesn’t make sense anyway.” I didn’t know whether Riku knew about Marluxia, maybe not, but he was trying very hard to extract information from me. “Then he mentioned his eyes, that they changed color time to time whenever he was near me and he couldn’t understand it. He told me that I wasn’t supposed to see that, that no one was. I asked him why did that happen to him and how, but he didn’t really answer me.”

A low, hard growl escaped from Marluxia’s lips. “You didn’t tell him anything, right?”

“No, I didn’t. I wouldn’t tell him about you,” I assured him with my words. Why would I want others to know about Marluxia? He was too perfect, so beautiful. Knowing that I was the only one who could see him brought satisfaction to me.

“Please don’t reveal my existence to anyone,” he pleaded. “I wouldn’t like that.”

“No, of course not. My lips are sealed. If Riku asks about ‘darkness’ and whatnot, I won’t speak a word.”

He sighed in relief and brought me closer to him.

“You can trust me.” I said with confidence. “And I can trust you.”

I relaxed my head on his shoulders as I began to drift off to a somnolent slumber. The soft hum of the rain thumping against the window and roof reeled me into drowsiness. I was already exhausted, my body ached and my heart was doing too well either.

Naminé’s devilish face popped in my mind the next moment. I flared with anger, thinking about her wasn’t what I wanted to see when I was about to sleep. Naminé looked as she usually did, her platinum hair flung onto one side of her shoulder. She looked…so kind and innocent. But I knew in my heart that she was as deceiving as ever. I saw her in a familiar place, she stood on golden sand as clear blue waves gently washed by her.

She was holding hands with someone, but I couldn’t tell who it wass. I looked closer into the picture that was developing in my mind. She was facing the bright sky as her companion sat snuggly next to her. The sunset was sinking down the horizon, streaks of orange and red had exploded in the sky.

The boy beside her had brunette hair, spiky, going to almost every direction. I gasped at my sudden epiphany, it was Sora. He was sitting on the beach, holding hands with Naminé watching the sunset go down. She rested her head on his shoulder.

In the background, overshadowing the voices from the T.V., was the ringing of the telephone in the kitchen that brought me into reality for a split second. I heard the rain crash down harder and much louder than it had a few moments ago. I blocked out the telephone the third time it rang.

Naminé turned to Sora, I saw half of her smiling face. She seemed to be thrilled that she was ending the day by sitting with him. My teeth seemed to be clenched tightly against each other. Sora wrapped his arm around her waist from behind and held onto her tightly.

The phone rang for what I believed was the seventh time and it began to irritate me almost as much as the vivid thought in my mind molested me. The beep rang as the prerecorded voice told the caller the leave a message since no one was able to take the call.

“Um, hi Kairi. I just called to talk to you…so, how’s everything going? Um…er…I’m sorry about not calling you earlier……”

The voice was drowned out by my reverie as Naminé perked her head up and started to lean closer to Sora. He closed his eyes slowly as she came closer to him.

My heart beat faster, my hands clenched into severe fists. I felt my body shaking, shaking with rage.

“….I hope you’re alright…..we should meet up some time…” The gentle voice continued to talk, his voice echoed in the kitchen as it reached my ears.

Naminé was getting closer to Sora, closer and closer, so close.

I wanted to do something so bad to that girl, something terrible. I felt my breathing harden as my body became stiff and stressful.

“I hate it that we couldn’t talk tonight.” The person in the background laughed a little and he continued to rant. I wish he’s hang up already, whoever he was. Probably one of Leon’s friends. “We could’ve talked all night…”

I was being dragged in and out of reality between the terrible thought and what was going on around me.

“We’ll be together soon, I promise.” He said after a moments of silence.

Sora!!!! It slapped me hard on the face. Sora was on the other line, he was leaving a message when he was supposed to be talking to me directly. His voice had been so familiar but I hadn’t realized it was him until that moment. Could I be that deaf? I was about to wake up when what I saw next in my mind stopped me from doing so.

Naminé had finally locked lips with Sora, the one who should have been doing that was me. That was the last straw, the clear image broke my sanity. I wanted to scream in anger and hatred towards that demon. She had to ruin my past and now she’s taking over me in my dreams.

A sharp and deafening clash of thunder and a shriek of lighting erupted in the dark sky outside. It felt as if the whole house had shaken violently. My eyes jerked open at the sound with adrenaline rushing through the rest of my body.

The entire house was left in darkness. It seemed that the electricity had been cut off when the lightening hit. The TV was black and Sora wasn’t talking anymore, his call had been cut off.

I jumped out of Marluxia’s arms as I rushed to the kitchen, making my way through the dark, and towards the dead phone. I picked up the receiver but there was no tone. Sora called me, he actually called and I missed my chance to talk to him.

Tears streamed down my face, the opportunity had slipped through my fingers and I couldn’t even call him back because the damn phone was dead. I longed to hear his sweet, childish voice. I pressed random buttons on the phone as I squinted in the darkness.

The phone slipped through my hands and clashed onto the floor. I couldn’t see it but when I felt it, I kicked it hard across the kitchen floor. Slouching down, I curled into a ball on the cold floor and stayed motionless. The thumping of the rain was the only thing that I could here in the lifeless house.

Marluxia came to me, kneeling down when he saw the state I was in. Grabbing onto my arms, he pulled me up in a sitting position. He pulled me closer to him and rubbed his hand down my back but didn’t say anything.

“I can’t believe I was so close to talking to him,” I sobbed into his chest and resisted from crying.

---xxx---

Dear Sora,

Today sucked, I hated it so much. I had a tiring day with Riku’s stupid talk and nonsense about me changing the weather and such. But that doesn’t matter because I was so close with talking to you. You said you’d call and you did, but thanks to me, I didn’t pick up that damn phone. A terrifying thought of you being with Naminé distracted me and caused all this mess…I don’t want to talk about that either. I’m just thankful that you never met her before. Trust me when I say that.

Lighting and thunder struck, cutting the power out. The phone died and I couldn’t call you back. I think the whole town is left in complete darkness because when I peered outside, it was pitch black. Not a single light in sight. Leon’s out there with his friends doing who knows what. He’s so lucky, at least he has friends. Sometimes, I want to be with them, but I don’t think he’d want me around.

You don’t know how lonely I am here, how much I wish you were here with me or that I was with you. It’s not fair. I was mournful earlier today all because of jerk Riku. He wanted to test a theory of his and asked me to think something that made me sad. I did, and I regretted it. I shouldn’t have thought about my dead parents, but I did and I was in a terrible mood. It had begun to rain accompanied with a harsh wind. Then, Riku wanted me to think of something happy, which wasn’t a problem for me. I thought of how life was like with us when we were younger. As soon as I brightened up, the rain stopped and it was sunny and perfect again. He wanted me to think of something that upset me or angered me and I refused. I wasn’t going to do that…But anyway, I think his ’theory’ is a load of crap and BS.

I hit him by accident somewhere so now he said I owed him. He wanted to go to a party, or I think he does, and wanted me to go with him. What a baby. He doesn’t need me, I bet he’s using me as an object so he could show off since he doesn’t have a girlfriend, or at least I don’t think he does. I would feel so sorry for anyone who had to be his girlfriend, no one should have to go through that pain. So like, now I have to go to this dumb party but I kind of want to go, not with him of course, but because it’s making Naminé jealous. I hate her, so she deserves this. It will bug her so much…I can’t wait. Don’t worry, I still belong to you. I don’t like him like that, I don’t like him at all. I will never have the courage to ask you this, but how come we never….you know what, I don’t feel like writing that thought down, it’s too embarrassing, even in writing.

I’m going to call you tomorrow, so I hope you’ll be around. I cried enough to finally let it go, you know, for me not being able to talk to you tonight. I was just looking forward to it for a long, long time. And when the time came, I blew it. But I came to realize that there will always be tomorrow and I could call you then. I could have called you first, but I was too nervous to do so. I wanted you to be the one to call me first. I have to go now, the candle light that I am using to see with is dying out. It was hard to write in here with the dim light I had, but I did so anyway. The candle light it the only thing illuminating this somber house…I hate the dark.

Love you,
Kairi.

-End Chapter 4-

A/N: Thanks for reading this extememly long chapter...Chapter 5 is more than half done, but i may not be able to update it because of my stupid Internet!!! So, do you like this so far?! Just wondering. :]

 

[Xuan]

Her emotions are definitely affecting everything around her.

NICE ONE!

 

[Sora788]

thank you :] lol i suppose ur right.

 

[Azrael]

What an amazing story? What did Kairi and Sora never do?

 

[Sora788]

lol, he never 'asked her out'. Meaning, they were never bf/gf. :]

 

[Riku Fan1415]

Marluxia is obviously distancing Kairi from Sora. He must have caused the lightning storm. But what's with Riku? Does he have a "dark spirit", as well?

 

[Sora788]

Yepp, Marluxia is distancing Kairi from Sora but she doesn't see that. Actually, he didnt cause the lightening storm, Kairi did because she was upset at the small reverie she saw in her mind. Yeah, Riku does have that dark spirit thing with him, but he doesnt mention it to anyone yet. Things will be more explained later on through the story :] Thanks so much for reading!!

 

[PaopuStar--]

Wow, this story's amazing!


Can't wait for next update!

Kairi's not falling for Marluxia, is she?!
DUN DUN DUNNN.

Ohhh, Marluxia you evil pink grim reaper! ):

Wait...He IS evil in this story, isn't he?



Poor Kairi. Listen to Riku!!



Great chapters *waits patiently*


UPDATE NOWPLZ.

Lol, jokes. But try and update soon!
And, erm, happy birthday?

 

[PaopuStar--]

*yawn*



Can you update, soon, please?
Nah, I'm not tired of waiting, I'm just so tense! I wanna see what happens in the next chapter, lol!

 

[Sora788]

^Thanks for wishing me a happy bday

I have chapter 5 done already, but getting it from my laptop to my desktop is what I need to do now. But I lost my stupid memory stick, damn it!!! My laptop doesn't have internet access, but I will find ways to get it here. Ch 6 is in process too. Oh and yes, Marluxia is evil. Very. He has a plot scheming in his evil mind, but Kairi doesn't know anything about it and Riku is trying to prevent bad things from happening, which he is unsuccessful with unfortunately lolz. Thanks for reading!! So sorry for the long wait!! It's so frustrating...

 

[PaopuStar--]

No worries, take your time!

And no problem, I hope you had a great b'day! ^^

GODDAMMIT KAIRI.

How come she hates Riku? ):

Kairi you suck ¬¬


LOL.
I'm gonna go and be creative. Aw, crap, I still have to write a ballad for my English h/w! D;

 

[Sora788]

lol, yeah Kairi, stop hatin' on Riku!! She hates him because she thinks that he likes attention and whatever hot guys do. She'll hate him even more when he does something stupid later on!

I was wondering if the chapters were too long? Does it take forever to read? Just askin' because I don't want to make the future chapters too long if it's annoying...

 

[Xuan]

This probably will be a Riku/Kairi pairing, with things going on this way...

 

[PaopuStar--]

Riku, don't do anything stupid!!

And your chapters are fine the way they are (Y)
We like them long, lol!

More to read ;D

EDIT:

Please update soon!