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I know it's weird and all me typing this up here but yeah.
I need help. When I was five and a half I was diagnosed with anxiety (means i worry alot) and depression and misdiagnosed with Ad/HD. I had an abusive father and used to get beaten alot.
My mum finally grew some guts and left my dad so We came to a far country town (where i live now).
I was still scared of pretty much everyone so i didnt talk to people that much and ate my depression away and ended up with real low self esteem cause i was over weight. The other kids used to tease me and I got worse. By the end of kindergarten i was on strong sleeping tablets and 'happy tablest' (anti-depressants).
Around year four i had started hurting myself by banging my head on things, one day I got really baddly teased and starting banging my head on a pole in the playground. I was later sent to a counsellor and was talked to about why i was sad and how i could make myself feel better. By 2 years of counselling I had started highschool and was finally off my tablests cause i was 13.
During that time I still had deep depression and always got worse when i had to see me dad. When I did something wrong i would hurt myself for punishment of what I did wrong. I hate pain so its a good way to remind myself not to do it again.
This year has been bad, heaps of fights with my friends, family fueds and different things I've gone down hill again. 3 other girls in my year suffer baddly from depression. I've started hurting myself again and decided to approach my mum. Now shes scared about how she even looks at me, ive tried to tell her that im still the smae as before and now i feel as its my fault. When i told my friends they didnt beleive me cause im sucha bright and happy person... i dont know what to do.
I need help. When I was five and a half I was diagnosed with anxiety (means i worry alot) and depression and misdiagnosed with Ad/HD. I had an abusive father and used to get beaten alot.
My mum finally grew some guts and left my dad so We came to a far country town (where i live now).
I was still scared of pretty much everyone so i didnt talk to people that much and ate my depression away and ended up with real low self esteem cause i was over weight. The other kids used to tease me and I got worse. By the end of kindergarten i was on strong sleeping tablets and 'happy tablest' (anti-depressants).
Around year four i had started hurting myself by banging my head on things, one day I got really baddly teased and starting banging my head on a pole in the playground. I was later sent to a counsellor and was talked to about why i was sad and how i could make myself feel better. By 2 years of counselling I had started highschool and was finally off my tablests cause i was 13.
During that time I still had deep depression and always got worse when i had to see me dad. When I did something wrong i would hurt myself for punishment of what I did wrong. I hate pain so its a good way to remind myself not to do it again.
This year has been bad, heaps of fights with my friends, family fueds and different things I've gone down hill again. 3 other girls in my year suffer baddly from depression. I've started hurting myself again and decided to approach my mum. Now shes scared about how she even looks at me, ive tried to tell her that im still the smae as before and now i feel as its my fault. When i told my friends they didnt beleive me cause im sucha bright and happy person... i dont know what to do.