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Part I:
Please help me. Anyone.
Here's how it is. . . I'm gay. Shocker right? No? I know, most anyone on here who knows me knows this about me. The thing is. . . as much as it pains me to admit, after having been out here for--shit I guess that'd be 6 years--I still have not completely come out to my family. And that's really where I'm having a lot of emotional turmoil. It's silly really, all my friends know, all my coworkers know, yet I can't sit my family down and tell them.
First I should let you know how I run with my family. First I got my mum and my sister, these are my family family, I've only ever been with these two since day 1. My parents got divorced when I was younger so I've always had them. The thing about my mum and my sister is I know that they love me. I know they wouldn't care. In fact, I'm almost 100% positive they're completely aware of my sexuality. For one thing, I work at Olive Garden, my sister and my mum used to work there as well and considering my coworkers know, and those same coworkers worked and are friends with my mum and sister, I'm sure somewhere they've found out. Not to mention I wasn't very good at hiding my porn earlier in life haha. So I'm sure my sister's seen that. . . ;~; (sorry).
And yet. AND YET. Despite this, I still. . . just don't have it in me. It's awful. I'm not sure what I'm scared of. If anything. To me it's more a question of 'if they already know, then is sitting them down necessary?' you tell me KHI. How do I even begin to approach it? I mean is this something I should be deadpan about?
I think really what makes me most apprehensive is that at the end of they day I guess my mum and my sister don't know me that well anymore. That's what's breaking me. I'm cheery and funny to my coworkers and friends cause I'm comfortable around them and I can make jokes and stuff I couldn't otherwise make to my mum and sister, I'm starting to realize how incredibly censored I am to them, which is something that's kind of just dawning on me. And it upsets me. I've just always been kind of the lighthearted laid back kid in the family, so actually having to sit my family down and tell them something so serious is petrifying.
As far as my father (who's in the airforce, is pretty cool) I just don't have even a smidgen of an idea of how he'll take it. Do I want him to know? Absolutely. Now? Maybe not.
Honestly KHI, I want them all to know so bad, but I don't want them to look at me different. . . I know, horrible ;~; help?
ok so this says part I, cause i'm actually just completely unmovable as far as the pace of my life but i figured this bit was long enough so i'll get help on this and maybe more later ;~
Please help me. Anyone.
Here's how it is. . . I'm gay. Shocker right? No? I know, most anyone on here who knows me knows this about me. The thing is. . . as much as it pains me to admit, after having been out here for--shit I guess that'd be 6 years--I still have not completely come out to my family. And that's really where I'm having a lot of emotional turmoil. It's silly really, all my friends know, all my coworkers know, yet I can't sit my family down and tell them.
First I should let you know how I run with my family. First I got my mum and my sister, these are my family family, I've only ever been with these two since day 1. My parents got divorced when I was younger so I've always had them. The thing about my mum and my sister is I know that they love me. I know they wouldn't care. In fact, I'm almost 100% positive they're completely aware of my sexuality. For one thing, I work at Olive Garden, my sister and my mum used to work there as well and considering my coworkers know, and those same coworkers worked and are friends with my mum and sister, I'm sure somewhere they've found out. Not to mention I wasn't very good at hiding my porn earlier in life haha. So I'm sure my sister's seen that. . . ;~; (sorry).
And yet. AND YET. Despite this, I still. . . just don't have it in me. It's awful. I'm not sure what I'm scared of. If anything. To me it's more a question of 'if they already know, then is sitting them down necessary?' you tell me KHI. How do I even begin to approach it? I mean is this something I should be deadpan about?
I think really what makes me most apprehensive is that at the end of they day I guess my mum and my sister don't know me that well anymore. That's what's breaking me. I'm cheery and funny to my coworkers and friends cause I'm comfortable around them and I can make jokes and stuff I couldn't otherwise make to my mum and sister, I'm starting to realize how incredibly censored I am to them, which is something that's kind of just dawning on me. And it upsets me. I've just always been kind of the lighthearted laid back kid in the family, so actually having to sit my family down and tell them something so serious is petrifying.
As far as my father (who's in the airforce, is pretty cool) I just don't have even a smidgen of an idea of how he'll take it. Do I want him to know? Absolutely. Now? Maybe not.
Honestly KHI, I want them all to know so bad, but I don't want them to look at me different. . . I know, horrible ;~; help?
ok so this says part I, cause i'm actually just completely unmovable as far as the pace of my life but i figured this bit was long enough so i'll get help on this and maybe more later ;~