Okay well I dont really know where to start and i suppose a lot of the following story might not be relevent to the problem but it matters to me so here goes: I used to have a large group of friends. One friend was my best friend and we did everything together and I told her everything and we talked all the time and relied on eachother for everything and would do anything for eachother. And she started to drift away from our large group of friends and I almost felt like she thought that she was superior to them or more mature perhaps. While I still wanted to hang out with them she felt sort of left out. So I started hanging out with her and I got sort of disconnected from my former group. I'm still friends with them but not nearly as close as I could be. And then a new year began and we met older kids and they asked me if I wanted to do drugs sometime and I didnt want to and well I told my best friend cause we were close and she is boy crazy to be plain and simple and she idolized those boys. So she took it into her own to arrange a time to "try it" know ing that I dont want to and then not even telling me about it at all and being all secretive. Finally the day before the actual event shall we say she tells me about it saying I should come.
Well I dont want to go but I care about her and I dont want her alone with these older boys. I tell her no and that i dont think she should go and she says I dont care what you think Im going whatever the case. ; (
Before last period the next day she looked at me with a kind of nervous face and said pleaseee go. And just seeing her all worried like that I felt obligated to go no matter whether I wanted to or not. So I went to the kids house and at first I passed up the stuff they were offering me but then I just felt stupid sitting there and the pressure got the better of me I guess.
That visit was followed by more little get togethers and I grew farther and farther away from my original group of friends and even though I didnt want to go she would guilt me into going and finally I said I'm done I dont want anything to do with this anymore. And I just put my foot down which I am very proud of, I'm glad I did.
Anyways my friend continued to go and she actually bought maurijauna and came to school high everyday so when I would meet up with her I couldnt even talk to her. It was jsut really sad for me. Cause I was just losing my bestest friend in the whole universe. everything she did was for drugs and those boys, I think she was trying to impress them. She got really messed up one night and just totaly put herself out there I guess and ended up fooling around with one of the older boys. I felt somewhat responsible because if I was there that wouldn't have happened but since then I glad I wasnt there.
At that point I hadnt talked to her for the entire weekend and it was just like bam all this stuff that I didnt agree with for one thing and now she was kind of with this boy. And she told me it felt awkward and she didnt like it and that she would have to tell him that she doesnt want to be with him and it was just not what she wanted to do.
since this point I havent really really (i mean like how we used to) talked her. Because she was with this boy and she never did tell him what she wanted to originally but I guess shes okay with him now if not great. Now they are always together. And i can never just have my best friend cause hes always around and even when we planned a day to hang out together she called him and talked to him on the fu**ing phone right in front of me or just says things like oh I just want to go home and see ___ I just want to be with him all the time. Sometimes she just makes me feel like shit cause i hadnt seen her for a month and she sees her boyfriend almost everyday and talks to him on the phone everyday anyways. And then when we have an event to go to he tags along and then I dont even end up getting to hang out or talk to her. I just wish she would tell me shes bring ing him along but instead I think oh this will be nice I will get to spend some time with her and then she shows up with him. Also after getting together with him all my trust in her is gone cause she'll say things about me I dont want her to tell people and its just rude.
I put her in front of my other social life and now its like she doesnt have any fu**ing time for me.
I usually just stay home, work out and play video games. Ive noticed that Im kind of an angrier person now too.. and I just feel sad a lot. Luckily I love my family and my home life is good but with the new school year starting.. i dont know.
i forgot what im trying to say...
-megan.
Well I dont want to go but I care about her and I dont want her alone with these older boys. I tell her no and that i dont think she should go and she says I dont care what you think Im going whatever the case. ; (
Before last period the next day she looked at me with a kind of nervous face and said pleaseee go. And just seeing her all worried like that I felt obligated to go no matter whether I wanted to or not. So I went to the kids house and at first I passed up the stuff they were offering me but then I just felt stupid sitting there and the pressure got the better of me I guess.
That visit was followed by more little get togethers and I grew farther and farther away from my original group of friends and even though I didnt want to go she would guilt me into going and finally I said I'm done I dont want anything to do with this anymore. And I just put my foot down which I am very proud of, I'm glad I did.
Anyways my friend continued to go and she actually bought maurijauna and came to school high everyday so when I would meet up with her I couldnt even talk to her. It was jsut really sad for me. Cause I was just losing my bestest friend in the whole universe. everything she did was for drugs and those boys, I think she was trying to impress them. She got really messed up one night and just totaly put herself out there I guess and ended up fooling around with one of the older boys. I felt somewhat responsible because if I was there that wouldn't have happened but since then I glad I wasnt there.
At that point I hadnt talked to her for the entire weekend and it was just like bam all this stuff that I didnt agree with for one thing and now she was kind of with this boy. And she told me it felt awkward and she didnt like it and that she would have to tell him that she doesnt want to be with him and it was just not what she wanted to do.
since this point I havent really really (i mean like how we used to) talked her. Because she was with this boy and she never did tell him what she wanted to originally but I guess shes okay with him now if not great. Now they are always together. And i can never just have my best friend cause hes always around and even when we planned a day to hang out together she called him and talked to him on the fu**ing phone right in front of me or just says things like oh I just want to go home and see ___ I just want to be with him all the time. Sometimes she just makes me feel like shit cause i hadnt seen her for a month and she sees her boyfriend almost everyday and talks to him on the phone everyday anyways. And then when we have an event to go to he tags along and then I dont even end up getting to hang out or talk to her. I just wish she would tell me shes bring ing him along but instead I think oh this will be nice I will get to spend some time with her and then she shows up with him. Also after getting together with him all my trust in her is gone cause she'll say things about me I dont want her to tell people and its just rude.
I put her in front of my other social life and now its like she doesnt have any fu**ing time for me.
I usually just stay home, work out and play video games. Ive noticed that Im kind of an angrier person now too.. and I just feel sad a lot. Luckily I love my family and my home life is good but with the new school year starting.. i dont know.
i forgot what im trying to say...
-megan.
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