that taochan or one of the admins ban me because since the events in july I've been paranoid of members and it's drawn the attention of the person behind the events to sneak through the cracks and keep an eye on me and he says he could start causing trouble again so for the sake of this site please ban me I want this to end and this seems to be the only solution. so I want the Admins to permaban me because it could cause unwanted problems for everyone