I feel so pathetic

[DualWielding]

I'm 34 year old man... and the release of HD Naminé is the only thing I've been truly excited about in months.... and I spent all my jewels and didn't get her... yah... It's really sad when your life reaches a point when a stupid phone game is the most exciting thing you have going on...

 

[crrazzycat]

its only a game, just enjoy it, no point getting stressed over something so trivial

i dont have hd namine nor hav i had any interest in her tbh, its not like she is the best game changing medal ever.

 

[DefiantHeart]

its only a game, just enjoy it, no point getting stressed over something so trivial

i dont have hd namine nor hav i had any interest in her tbh, its not like she is the best game changing medal ever.

Wellll... it was very life changing with me on Counterpoint 30+ copying Tama or a powerful friend medal, honestly... now I don't really need any other medal besides 0.2 Kairi and Reynn, as Namine can just become any new medal that people get in randoms...

To the op, though... I'm sure SENA will be more loose with their deals and up the rates probably next year? Just save up your free jewels daily and wait until next year I'd suggest... then play the game. A ton of people on youtube spent a ton of money and didn't get her either. *hugs*.

 

[Wilderness]

Don't feel pathetic - just remember, there are worse things to be hooked on. Dangerous things! An innocent (even if slightly obsessive, like me) hobby is just that - innocent.

 

[Chickenme]

Your feelings are understandable, if you wanted to pull that medal and you didn't get her because of reasons beyond your control it's logical to be sad and/or disappointed.

It's normal to get excited for a game, that's what they're for, to have fun and excitement with them. Also the fact that you don't have much going on right now isn't necessarily bad, sometimes the small things, like games, are enough to get through, like when you have a bad day and playing your favorite game cheers you up, obviously these things are different for each person. Just know that it's ok to be excited about this, things will change eventually and you may find more things you'll like, hell, you may even stop playing the game at some point, who knows, you just try and keep going ^^

 

[Leopardess]

You're not pathetic. And age is irrelevant.

Please don't beat yourself up over the game. I know it's easy to get hooked and excited. We all love it. And I think many of us know how much we wanted certain medals. Many of us still do. I would love Namine. I love Namine period. Keep an eye out for her. She will be available in other pulls, trust me. No time to give up now.

Keep playing the game and enjoying yourself. It sounds like you really, really enjoy it. Nothing wrong with being focused on something you enjoy. Don't be so hard on yourself. BTW, we're a big community. Maybe join a stream you like on YouTube or something. Have you checked out some Khux content on YouTube? A nice, active community there. Lots of people like you who love and are focused on the game. Lots of people stream and chat. Join a chat. Talk about the game with others. I follow Smelly Octopus and Pigginatti. Check them out.

Keep posting. And don't give up hope yet on HD Namine. Save your jewels and she will be around again...

 

[Alpha Baymax]

Don't feel bad, there's been plenty of people who have been in a similar situation as you. Honestly Kingdom Hearts Union X uses the Gaicha model for its earnings. It's been psychologically proven that the Gaicha model creates impulses similar to that of gambling. The medal draw is the games Gaicha model, and because the medals have timeless Disney characters, it's makes people all the more impulsive to acquire them.

 

[DualWielding]

Thanks guys you are really kind and understanding... the true is I've been dealing with depression for many years now... I found video games as a tool to cope while doing my Ph.D but now that I finished and have to balance a full time job with teaching I feel really overwhelmed as I don't have too much time to play... I'm stuck in a situation where I'm really lonely... can't get a date to save my life... and my friends are often too busy with their own lives now that that they are married and have families of their own... I'm a huge Kingdom Hearts fans and KHuX has helped me cope tremendously as I can get some play before starting my workday, during my lunch hours and in the breaks between the classes I teach... I guess I'm not as upset at not getting Namine as I'm at how pathetic my life has turned out that I need a game like this to cheer me up... i guess there ware worse problems to have but depression has gotten the best of me... and as Chickenme mentioned I just have to rely on whatever gets me through...

@Leopardess I watch Octopus videos on youtube he's cool, not familiar with Pigginati... you are right watching videos on youtube and commenting and posting on forums also help coping... just wish I could break out for the stage where I need to cope

 

[alexis.anagram]

Just wanna pop in to say I can totally sympathize with you, I fought hard for HD Namine when she was released in JPUx with no luck (and she wasn't the first medal where this had happened...) and I was genuinely upset. I also deal with depression, so I've got an idea of what it's like to seek solace or relief in something outside of myself, because directing my thoughts and emotions inward creates a pretty ugly cycle sometimes that's hard to break out of-- and then to feel let down by that source of pleasure when it feels like there's nothing left inside of me to make up for that is tough. But in this case, I found that it passed and I was able to continue playing and enjoying the game: sometimes I just have to surrender the past as something I can't change and keep myself present.

As for the age thing, I'm gonna be playing KH on my death bed at this rate, plus I think there's a distinct awareness within this community that none of us are getting any younger, so if you're looking to have an existential crisis surrounding that I'd say you're in good company.

And congrats on getting your Ph.D.! I can hear what you're saying about how it's been a tough road, but it was pretty cool of you to reach out the forums and share your feelings like this.

 

[Leopardess]

Good morning, all! A bit of good news...my aunt is playing Union Cross on her iPhone. Is totally hooked...and is 66 years old. She is the coolest aunt. She's even threatening to start her own YouTube channel and call it "The Crazy Old Lady plays Khux!" She won't join my party, though. LOL. Yep, play games until your fingers can't move anymore!

Point is, keep on keeping on. Depression is something so many of us struggle with, I think, and we do it silently. Having support and groups and community is always a lifeline...

 

[Nazo]

Thanks guys you are really kind and understanding... the true is I've been dealing with depression for many years now... I found video games as a tool to cope while doing my Ph.D but now that I finished and have to balance a full time job with teaching I feel really overwhelmed as I don't have too much time to play... I'm stuck in a situation where I'm really lonely... can't get a date to save my life... and my friends are often too busy with their own lives now that that they are married and have families of their own... I'm a huge Kingdom Hearts fans and KHuX has helped me cope tremendously as I can get some play before starting my workday, during my lunch hours and in the breaks between the classes I teach... I guess I'm not as upset at not getting Namine as I'm at how pathetic my life has turned out that I need a game like this to cheer me up... i guess there ware worse problems to have but depression has gotten the best of me... and as Chickenme mentioned I just have to rely on whatever gets me through...

@Leopardess I watch Octopus videos on youtube he's cool, not familiar with Pigginati... you are right watching videos on youtube and commenting and posting on forums also help coping... just wish I could break out for the stage where I need to cope

Don't feel bad for using games as a coping mechanism. You should not in any way feel guilty or pathetic for participating in something that helps you feel good. Depression is a bitch. I have family members that have been clinically diagnosed and I went through something in my life that caused me to sink into it as well, and I understand just how crushing and draining it truly is. So, if KHUX makes you excited and gives you something to look forward to? Do NOT feel bad or stupid or whatever for feeling that way! It is absolutely okay. There are MUCH worse things that you could have turned to in order to numb the pain and/or feel happy.

Again, do not feel bad or pathetic for feeling this way. Judging by your original post, it sounds like HD Namine was the first thing in a while that made you feel happy and excited, and then when you didn't get her, it kind of tipped you over the edge of your sadness? Trust me, I understand. You are not alone. And again, don't feel pathetic for enjoying the game and using it to help you feel happy. That's literally the entire reason games exist, is to entertain us and make us feel good. If the game is making you happy, it's doing its job! And there is absolutely nothing wrong with using that feeling as a means to battle your depression and help you to push forward.

 

[DualWielding]

thanks again to you all for your kind words and cheering me up... I do feel a bit better know and your words certainly helped

 

[DefiantHeart]

thanks again to you all for your kind words and cheering me up... I do feel a bit better know and your words certainly helped

Thash good. ^_^ Maybe chu'll have better luck in the WOFF banner, or some other future banner. Only time will tell. :3