I'm sorry if I shouldn't be expressing my concerns even though I just got here, but I feel like I need to get this off my chest. I really do appreciate the fact that you guys care about other people's situations, it's really thoughtful. Okay, here it goes:
So, in my homeroom, our teacher had my class complete an assignment regarding what nice things we had to say about each other. This one girl in my class (let's call her "M") wrote about me, and when my teacher announced what my classmates have to say about me, her's stood out to me the most. She wrote: "Let's me copy". At first, I thought nothing off it because I thought she genuinely cared about and she knew that I rarely got upset. But today, I've been thinking about those 3 words to the point where it was engraved on the center of my brain. And that's when I got really, really upset.
This person, who I genuinely cared about and thought of as a friend, turns out to be no more than a two-timer who used me to fulfill her own agenda. So, I'm really hard-working student, 2nd on the Honor Roll. And ever since Day 1, I was susceptible to the idea that there would be this type of person who wouldn't care about my well-being or even tried befriend me. This person would come to me and ask for help in class or homework. And there instances, yes there were. But I was under the impression that these people actually did care about me. And I let them out of the kindness of my heart because I cared about them.
But when M had the audacity to genuinely express her opinion about me, I received a reality check. I shouldn't let people use me like a tool like that. That is the worst thing that a person could do to anyone: to use them as a pawn, to use them as means to achieve their own goal with no consideration for that person's feelings or well-being. To be honest, I want to call her out for it. Make her feel bad like she made me. She made me feel like I was nothing to her. I'm always the one saying hi to her first, instigating conversations with her. And you know what I said about her? I said she "had a positive charismatic attitude and an overall positive personality" and I appreciated her for that. She took my help for granted. I cared about her and she took it for granted.
Look, I might be mad at her, but I don't hate her. I don't despise. She really is a nice person. But to see her true feelings about was completely insincere and very inconsiderate. You don't know how badly I just want to exert all this anger on her. But I don't want her hating me. I don't want everyone hating me. I don't to get beat up by her friends so she can get revenge. I don't to get suspended. I just don't want to get in trouble, but at the same time, I want to get my point across. My mind is crossing between 2 options and I don't know what to do. What do you think?
So, in my homeroom, our teacher had my class complete an assignment regarding what nice things we had to say about each other. This one girl in my class (let's call her "M") wrote about me, and when my teacher announced what my classmates have to say about me, her's stood out to me the most. She wrote: "Let's me copy". At first, I thought nothing off it because I thought she genuinely cared about and she knew that I rarely got upset. But today, I've been thinking about those 3 words to the point where it was engraved on the center of my brain. And that's when I got really, really upset.
This person, who I genuinely cared about and thought of as a friend, turns out to be no more than a two-timer who used me to fulfill her own agenda. So, I'm really hard-working student, 2nd on the Honor Roll. And ever since Day 1, I was susceptible to the idea that there would be this type of person who wouldn't care about my well-being or even tried befriend me. This person would come to me and ask for help in class or homework. And there instances, yes there were. But I was under the impression that these people actually did care about me. And I let them out of the kindness of my heart because I cared about them.
But when M had the audacity to genuinely express her opinion about me, I received a reality check. I shouldn't let people use me like a tool like that. That is the worst thing that a person could do to anyone: to use them as a pawn, to use them as means to achieve their own goal with no consideration for that person's feelings or well-being. To be honest, I want to call her out for it. Make her feel bad like she made me. She made me feel like I was nothing to her. I'm always the one saying hi to her first, instigating conversations with her. And you know what I said about her? I said she "had a positive charismatic attitude and an overall positive personality" and I appreciated her for that. She took my help for granted. I cared about her and she took it for granted.
Look, I might be mad at her, but I don't hate her. I don't despise. She really is a nice person. But to see her true feelings about was completely insincere and very inconsiderate. You don't know how badly I just want to exert all this anger on her. But I don't want her hating me. I don't want everyone hating me. I don't to get beat up by her friends so she can get revenge. I don't to get suspended. I just don't want to get in trouble, but at the same time, I want to get my point across. My mind is crossing between 2 options and I don't know what to do. What do you think?