Yeah, I know. This is at least the third thread. . .but oh well. I feel that it'll get more attention here.
These are my thoughts of the last two days. . .
I know, most of them don't rhyme, but I really don't feel like bothering. . .
If you're wondering where all of these came from, it's about someone. . .She's read some of these, meh. . .
I do have some titles for these, but I need to find the notebook that I have them written down in. I'll edit them after I post this.
These are my thoughts of the last two days. . .
I know, most of them don't rhyme, but I really don't feel like bothering. . .
If you're wondering where all of these came from, it's about someone. . .She's read some of these, meh. . .
I do have some titles for these, but I need to find the notebook that I have them written down in. I'll edit them after I post this.
Know that this is how I feel. . .
And I mean every word.
And I mean every word.
Answers
I thought that everything was fine
Turns out I was wrong
I thought we had plenty of time
Turns out I was wrong
So now I ask God, “Why?”
But the answer never comes
As I drown in myself
None can be the one
I wish that things could be different
Now I know they won’t be
I wish that I could fix whatever the hell I did
It’s too bad you wouldn’t see.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Promised Secrets
We promised to stay close
That’s one thing that wasn’t a joke
I promised not to shed a tear
That’s a promise that I just broke
I wish that you could see me now
But maybe it’s better that you don’t
I wish that it would last
But now I’m wishing for the past
Why do you make me feel this way?
I wish everything were once again new
Why can’t I get you out of my head?
Right now all I want is you.
You will never know how I feel.
These thoughts I will never share
Even as you sit next to me
I’m never truly there.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Maybe
Maybe one day
If I pretend to not care
Then maybe one day
I actually won’t.
What if that day doesn’t come?
What if I’m always left wondering. . .
“Why him and not me?”
Would any of it make a difference?
Right now I feel that it wouldn’t
Although it’s merely been three hours
It feels like an eternity
And right now that eternity is cold.
I’m sure that some day you’ll be happy
I hope that that day soon comes
I’m not sure what is in store for me
All that was isn’t anymore.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
If Only
How different would it have been
If you and I had stayed close?
Would we still be happy?
I’d like to think so
I know that we didn’t,
we didn’t make it very far,
but I felt that we could have
If only you had given it a chance
Now you’re gone,
Gone with him.
I can’t say that I’m mad,
But I certainly am jealous.
I wish that I could be
The one to make you happy
For now I’ll still attempt
But I fear that it won’t be so.
I keep reading the few poems you wrote me
I know that you liked me,
And I hope you knew that
I felt the same
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You’re Lucky
I’m lucky if I can get five minuets of sleep,
For you’re always there when I close my eyes
I know that now it won’t matter
But now all I see is grey in the skies.
Was that your doing
Draining the color from my eyes
You’re the only one who could’ve done it
At least you’re still here in that way.
It’s hard to come to grips with it
I’m sure for some it easy
But I’m not one of them
You’re lucky you can choose.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Why Not Me?
You say that you wished
That you never started that conversation
I, for one, wish that you’d start another
Even if the outcome remains the same.
It doesn’t matter anymore
I’m happy for you, as long as you’re happy, with whoever that may be.
I can’t lie, it does matter,
Why can’t that person be me?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Dreams
All that my dreams show me are lies
You’re always there, and so am I
The location is always different
But it’s always you and me.
We’re happy, together
Young or old
Rich or poor
In health or ill
Dark or Light
You’re always my light,
My guide in the darkness.
My warmth in the cold.
These dreams are short lived
I always wake up cold and in the dark.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It’s Cold
As the knife hovers over my wrist
The only safe guard is you
It’s you that keeps me from doing
What I know that you wouldn’t approve of.
I always feel cold now
As a world without you is expected
Why was I cast into here
A world without you.
I’m always asking “Why?”
It keeps running through my mind,
Never making it past my lips.
I’m afraid of persecution.
It’s ironic that it’s cold outside
As the rain and hail pound
I’m sure it’s warm where you are,
It’s warm if you’re around.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Happy?
As I listen to myself
I wonder if you feel the same. . .
Of course you don’t, why would you?
You’re happy with your life.
I’ve never thought of suicide
Not once.
That’s the easy way out
Just through this gun.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A Second Chance . . .
As I sink to the floor
I’m wondering why this is happening.
Why did you say what you did
And the contradict yourself?
You claimed it a mistake
To let me know your intentions
Trust me, it wasn’t.
I was happy for a small time
That’s more than I could say for a long time
I feel, or felt, the warmth of your body
Against mine
It hurts to think, never again.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ((End of where she's read))
Don’t Cry
I never wanted for you to cry
I’ve never been able to say that.
Now I hope that you know,
I’ll be there for you.
Even if it’s not the way that I’d like
I just don’t care anymore.
I’ll be whatever you want of me,
Friend or more.
I’m sorry if what I’m saying makes you cry,
I need to get this out somehow.
I’m sorry that I can’t stop
At least you know now.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I Promise
I won’t hurt myself,
Another promise I’ll keep.
For your sake and mine,
But mostly your’s.
I have no need for this knife,
I’ve already suffered enough pain.
Don’t cry,
It just adds more.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Somehow
If there’s no way to make you understand,
If there’s no way to change your opinion,
Then I hope you’re happy,
Maybe then I could be.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Good for Him
He’s a good guy,
I can understand why you like him.
I can understand why you’d rather be with him.
I guess he’s just a better guy.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Twenty-Four
I feel that there isn’t anything,
That can distract me for long,
From thinking of you.
Are you thinking of me?
As the hours tick away,
All through the night,
I’m thinking of you,
Wishing for you.
Has it really been that short of time,
Only twenty-four hours?
I told you earlier that it was like an eternity.
And I’m still cold.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Light
You said that you were still looking,
Searching for your light.
It seems you’ve found it, him.
That makes one of us.
I thought I saw it once,
But that light faded.
I still remember its warmth,
But it’s not the same.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Over and Over. . .
I heard your favorite holiday song.
The one you mentioned before.
It’s ok, it’s my favorite too.
I guess that’s something we share.
It was echoing through my mind,
As I tried to sleep.
A single tear fell,
I’m surprised it wasn’t more.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Unsure
I’m asking myself, “What’s left?”
I know that there’s something,
I just can’t find it.
I guess I’ll keep looking, alone.
I’ve always thought that,
There might be someone.
Right now I’m not so sure,
I’m sure you’re crying now.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Alone
Is there anybody out there?
Is anybody calling?
Of course not,
I’m the only one.
If you called,
It probably fell on deaf ears.
It’s not that I don’t want to hear you,
It’s just hard to take this.
I wish that you could hear me,
Calling out for someone.
But as I spoke before,
I’m the only one.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
One Day
What if one day,
After all this was over.
If you two never worked out.
Could we try again?
That’s not asking too much, is it?
Please tell me if it is.
I want to know,
Something must be certain.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Call Me
Every time the phone rings,
I’m hoping it’s you.
It never is,
You have no reason to call.
I know that you’re grounded,
It seems like everything was,
Just trying to,
Push us away.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Just me
Maybe it’s just me,
But I thought that,
We had something.
I guess it was. . .
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Can’t Move On
It’s raining again,
Of course I’m thinking of you.
By now you should know that.
Time moves on.
It seems like I’m,
The only one that can’t.
Why can’t I just,
Move on?
I don’t know,
It’s still that feeling,
That something’s there.
Even if it isn’t.
I still wish there was,
But now it’s no use.
I’ll fake my happiness,
As long as yours is real.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Better Things
You know. . .
You could’ve kept the cd,
Just for a bit longer.
I honestly didn’t have it on my mind.
There was better things to think about,
Than The Black Parade.
Like you and me,
Or you and him.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Tell Me Anything
I don’t want you to be sad,
Tell me if you are.
If it’s me that’s making you,
Tell me how to fix it.
If it’s someone else,
Tell me who.
If I can do anything,
Tell me what that is.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
What Do You Want?
I’m not sure,
What I’m expecting,
You to say,
When you read this.
I want you to be with me,
But I want you to be happy.
I want you to be happy,
But I want you to be with me.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Silence
I can’t stand the silence,
It always brings me,
Back to you.
I’m not sure what to think anymore.
I hope that your nights,
Aren’t filled with silence.
Then you won’t have to think,
About anything bad in life.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Talking
I’m sure.
Talking helps,
Me get used to the idea.
And that’s good.
It still hurts,
But I’ve promised.
I’ll have to set my feelings aside,
And just try to make them work.
Even if I don’t like it,
Even if I wish it were different.
I’m not writing this for you to read,
I’m writing for the sake of it.
It’s Funny. . .
I honestly thought,
That I was fine.
I felt that I was over it,
Today I realize that I’m not.
It’s funny,
Just that fact that we’re still friends,
I’m happy that we are,
I just hope that you’re happy.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I thought I was Done. . .
You know,
I thought I wouldn’t need to write anymore.
I thought that the feelings were dead.
Apparently not. . .
I figured that one day,
These pages would disappear,
Maybe in a fire,
Maybe just vanish.
I don’t think that I’ll be done,
Anytime soon.
That’s ok,
I’m kinda ok with it.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Secrets
We talked about secrets,
You made me guess.
I was right,
So you told.
I told you I had one,
But I couldn’t bring myself to tell.
I’m not sure if I can now,
I doubt I ever could. . .
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Was it Right?
I said that I was unsure,
If I could tell you everything.
I did, this morning.
Now I’m not sure if I should’ve.
Will it change what little we have?
Will we grow apart?
Will I lose a friend?
Will my world eclipse in darkness?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I thought that everything was fine
Turns out I was wrong
I thought we had plenty of time
Turns out I was wrong
So now I ask God, “Why?”
But the answer never comes
As I drown in myself
None can be the one
I wish that things could be different
Now I know they won’t be
I wish that I could fix whatever the hell I did
It’s too bad you wouldn’t see.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Promised Secrets
We promised to stay close
That’s one thing that wasn’t a joke
I promised not to shed a tear
That’s a promise that I just broke
I wish that you could see me now
But maybe it’s better that you don’t
I wish that it would last
But now I’m wishing for the past
Why do you make me feel this way?
I wish everything were once again new
Why can’t I get you out of my head?
Right now all I want is you.
You will never know how I feel.
These thoughts I will never share
Even as you sit next to me
I’m never truly there.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Maybe
Maybe one day
If I pretend to not care
Then maybe one day
I actually won’t.
What if that day doesn’t come?
What if I’m always left wondering. . .
“Why him and not me?”
Would any of it make a difference?
Right now I feel that it wouldn’t
Although it’s merely been three hours
It feels like an eternity
And right now that eternity is cold.
I’m sure that some day you’ll be happy
I hope that that day soon comes
I’m not sure what is in store for me
All that was isn’t anymore.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
If Only
How different would it have been
If you and I had stayed close?
Would we still be happy?
I’d like to think so
I know that we didn’t,
we didn’t make it very far,
but I felt that we could have
If only you had given it a chance
Now you’re gone,
Gone with him.
I can’t say that I’m mad,
But I certainly am jealous.
I wish that I could be
The one to make you happy
For now I’ll still attempt
But I fear that it won’t be so.
I keep reading the few poems you wrote me
I know that you liked me,
And I hope you knew that
I felt the same
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You’re Lucky
I’m lucky if I can get five minuets of sleep,
For you’re always there when I close my eyes
I know that now it won’t matter
But now all I see is grey in the skies.
Was that your doing
Draining the color from my eyes
You’re the only one who could’ve done it
At least you’re still here in that way.
It’s hard to come to grips with it
I’m sure for some it easy
But I’m not one of them
You’re lucky you can choose.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Why Not Me?
You say that you wished
That you never started that conversation
I, for one, wish that you’d start another
Even if the outcome remains the same.
It doesn’t matter anymore
I’m happy for you, as long as you’re happy, with whoever that may be.
I can’t lie, it does matter,
Why can’t that person be me?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Dreams
All that my dreams show me are lies
You’re always there, and so am I
The location is always different
But it’s always you and me.
We’re happy, together
Young or old
Rich or poor
In health or ill
Dark or Light
You’re always my light,
My guide in the darkness.
My warmth in the cold.
These dreams are short lived
I always wake up cold and in the dark.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It’s Cold
As the knife hovers over my wrist
The only safe guard is you
It’s you that keeps me from doing
What I know that you wouldn’t approve of.
I always feel cold now
As a world without you is expected
Why was I cast into here
A world without you.
I’m always asking “Why?”
It keeps running through my mind,
Never making it past my lips.
I’m afraid of persecution.
It’s ironic that it’s cold outside
As the rain and hail pound
I’m sure it’s warm where you are,
It’s warm if you’re around.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Happy?
As I listen to myself
I wonder if you feel the same. . .
Of course you don’t, why would you?
You’re happy with your life.
I’ve never thought of suicide
Not once.
That’s the easy way out
Just through this gun.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A Second Chance . . .
As I sink to the floor
I’m wondering why this is happening.
Why did you say what you did
And the contradict yourself?
You claimed it a mistake
To let me know your intentions
Trust me, it wasn’t.
I was happy for a small time
That’s more than I could say for a long time
I feel, or felt, the warmth of your body
Against mine
It hurts to think, never again.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ((End of where she's read))
Don’t Cry
I never wanted for you to cry
I’ve never been able to say that.
Now I hope that you know,
I’ll be there for you.
Even if it’s not the way that I’d like
I just don’t care anymore.
I’ll be whatever you want of me,
Friend or more.
I’m sorry if what I’m saying makes you cry,
I need to get this out somehow.
I’m sorry that I can’t stop
At least you know now.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I Promise
I won’t hurt myself,
Another promise I’ll keep.
For your sake and mine,
But mostly your’s.
I have no need for this knife,
I’ve already suffered enough pain.
Don’t cry,
It just adds more.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Somehow
If there’s no way to make you understand,
If there’s no way to change your opinion,
Then I hope you’re happy,
Maybe then I could be.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Good for Him
He’s a good guy,
I can understand why you like him.
I can understand why you’d rather be with him.
I guess he’s just a better guy.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Twenty-Four
I feel that there isn’t anything,
That can distract me for long,
From thinking of you.
Are you thinking of me?
As the hours tick away,
All through the night,
I’m thinking of you,
Wishing for you.
Has it really been that short of time,
Only twenty-four hours?
I told you earlier that it was like an eternity.
And I’m still cold.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Light
You said that you were still looking,
Searching for your light.
It seems you’ve found it, him.
That makes one of us.
I thought I saw it once,
But that light faded.
I still remember its warmth,
But it’s not the same.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Over and Over. . .
I heard your favorite holiday song.
The one you mentioned before.
It’s ok, it’s my favorite too.
I guess that’s something we share.
It was echoing through my mind,
As I tried to sleep.
A single tear fell,
I’m surprised it wasn’t more.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Unsure
I’m asking myself, “What’s left?”
I know that there’s something,
I just can’t find it.
I guess I’ll keep looking, alone.
I’ve always thought that,
There might be someone.
Right now I’m not so sure,
I’m sure you’re crying now.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Alone
Is there anybody out there?
Is anybody calling?
Of course not,
I’m the only one.
If you called,
It probably fell on deaf ears.
It’s not that I don’t want to hear you,
It’s just hard to take this.
I wish that you could hear me,
Calling out for someone.
But as I spoke before,
I’m the only one.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
One Day
What if one day,
After all this was over.
If you two never worked out.
Could we try again?
That’s not asking too much, is it?
Please tell me if it is.
I want to know,
Something must be certain.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Call Me
Every time the phone rings,
I’m hoping it’s you.
It never is,
You have no reason to call.
I know that you’re grounded,
It seems like everything was,
Just trying to,
Push us away.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Just me
Maybe it’s just me,
But I thought that,
We had something.
I guess it was. . .
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Can’t Move On
It’s raining again,
Of course I’m thinking of you.
By now you should know that.
Time moves on.
It seems like I’m,
The only one that can’t.
Why can’t I just,
Move on?
I don’t know,
It’s still that feeling,
That something’s there.
Even if it isn’t.
I still wish there was,
But now it’s no use.
I’ll fake my happiness,
As long as yours is real.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Better Things
You know. . .
You could’ve kept the cd,
Just for a bit longer.
I honestly didn’t have it on my mind.
There was better things to think about,
Than The Black Parade.
Like you and me,
Or you and him.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Tell Me Anything
I don’t want you to be sad,
Tell me if you are.
If it’s me that’s making you,
Tell me how to fix it.
If it’s someone else,
Tell me who.
If I can do anything,
Tell me what that is.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
What Do You Want?
I’m not sure,
What I’m expecting,
You to say,
When you read this.
I want you to be with me,
But I want you to be happy.
I want you to be happy,
But I want you to be with me.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Silence
I can’t stand the silence,
It always brings me,
Back to you.
I’m not sure what to think anymore.
I hope that your nights,
Aren’t filled with silence.
Then you won’t have to think,
About anything bad in life.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Talking
I’m sure.
Talking helps,
Me get used to the idea.
And that’s good.
It still hurts,
But I’ve promised.
I’ll have to set my feelings aside,
And just try to make them work.
Even if I don’t like it,
Even if I wish it were different.
I’m not writing this for you to read,
I’m writing for the sake of it.
It’s Funny. . .
I honestly thought,
That I was fine.
I felt that I was over it,
Today I realize that I’m not.
It’s funny,
Just that fact that we’re still friends,
I’m happy that we are,
I just hope that you’re happy.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I thought I was Done. . .
You know,
I thought I wouldn’t need to write anymore.
I thought that the feelings were dead.
Apparently not. . .
I figured that one day,
These pages would disappear,
Maybe in a fire,
Maybe just vanish.
I don’t think that I’ll be done,
Anytime soon.
That’s ok,
I’m kinda ok with it.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Secrets
We talked about secrets,
You made me guess.
I was right,
So you told.
I told you I had one,
But I couldn’t bring myself to tell.
I’m not sure if I can now,
I doubt I ever could. . .
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Was it Right?
I said that I was unsure,
If I could tell you everything.
I did, this morning.
Now I’m not sure if I should’ve.
Will it change what little we have?
Will we grow apart?
Will I lose a friend?
Will my world eclipse in darkness?
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You do feel everything what's written in your poems?Hope you'll get over this,then!
