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[Ðari]

Atrophy On My Emotions

Mercy was the problem I struggled with
Always taking ownership of problems so unwarranted
I wasn’t busy fucking with myself enough to give a shit
About my self esteem and constant state of worthlessness

But that’s the end it, close the book and starting over
I’m done pulling over, I’m saving up, might cop me a Range Rover
These fuck you’s looking plentiful, gottem hand and fist they taking over
Another out of body experience as my personalities unleashed with the change over

I can’t believe it took so long to be at peace with my emotions so dis regulated
With half a mind at work it’s no wonder why a nigga hesitated
To make commitments, make decisions that would change your life indefinitely
Fuck these pussies, I will never let them arrest what’s left of me

I’m here today, living, breathing, feeling like an anomaly
Quite honestly, my life has been a fucking tragic comedy
My brother died, best friend died, it’s sadness has and ebb and flow
Had to validate myself and relations in isolation because it’s all I know

It’s terrible, I’m terrible no bullshit and no exaggerations
People pissed away my patience with selfishness to fit the ages
Broke bitches wanting anything and everything so impatient
I’m violating every sanction, expectation, and won’t keep yall waiting

 

[Ðari]

Ice Climbers

Reload the clip, tired of this feeling of withholding shit
Done pissed me off the point of no return and I’m just over it
I’ll take all of you on a dare that’s based on ownership
And watch you lie and pussy out just like a brokerage

Don’t want your love or respect it’s value got inflated
Bitches complicated they life and barely getting situated
Kill’em where they stand and call it another man degraded
The energy so off the charts with lies they must be out here retrograding

I’ll put that my mother that this life I’m living is in my control
She skipped the birth control now your fucked while stuck on my patrol
These body shots are packing extra heat because hell is the toll
Your payment bounced, I fucked you up and got you looking questionable

 

[Ðari]

Souls and Shadows


A presence takes the neck and with a grip of cold
You’re collared up, obedient, don’t speak unless you’re told
The confidence you thought you built has already been sold
They wanna see you broken since no problems was never the goal

Shut it down, you carry on alone it must be tough
The brain on shuffle, scrambling just to make enough
We don’t even speak, sit in silence, reflection on the rough
Fuck I look like shutting up, challenge you and call your bluff

I let them kill me over and over again no hesitation
I’d rather break they spirits and subject them to expurgation
Clean the state and start over is the topic of this conversation
Crashing outta control got my hands ready for collaboration

Combo
Beat me into submission as it’s clearly necessary
Hate when they mistake my words for venom over vocabulary
Annihilating every adversary, lacerate they capillaries
Drag all of you to hell with me and back before I’m dead and buried

 

[Ðari]

The Ego Dies Forever

They'll tell you about yourself even when you're your biggest critic
They'll draw the line on your faults even when you say you did it
You can own it all and it doesn't matter what you did or didn't
But it feels like fuck all if your spirit dies when it ain't living
Don't it make you livid?

It should. Done fucked around and finally understood
That you're just an amalgamation of the bullshit withstood
Fuck what anybody got to say about you, me, the air and the wood
Treat all you with the social distance because I will not remain where I stood

I'll be the hypocrite for my sake of my sanity and self-empowerment
Weaklings call it a power-trip when securing my power in
Myself second to God's guide through my finest hour and
Acknowledging the self where I can bloom like a flower tip

Stand for something or don't bother standing by me
Fool yourself and think we're the same outside humanity
I'm watching you panicking, dumb reactive and it's insanity
Peace it up somewhere else ain't got time for the vanity
Because i've already felt useless, been worthless, been cursed in
An endless cycle of validation to disprove that I was worth it
I always was and still am, but subtle reminders show im working
Towards my best version, kill what killed me to finally stop the hurting


Pride. Dies. Today.
Along with shame.

 

[Ðari]

[Persona 5] Survival Instinct//


Warning signs are at the front and hard to miss
These boring times can’t be allowed to insist
I already told you I’m burning too hot to resist
Don’t press with pressure because I’ll ensure you don’t persist

It won’t be quick, the struggle in any capacity is the vitriol
Seething from the ear orifice better treat the pain with fentanyl

Feel flesh meet flesh strike fast and true
Eyes, jaw, face chest, move out the cement shoes
Get out, I know you’re not deaf dude
Lift those feet and waddle, post haste? Rude.

Already know sleep won’t find you
Those chattering teeth remind you
Just who you think you’re working with
Freeze and feel even a fraction of what I’ve been feeling since

Since…since…I can’t really remember when…

 

[Ðari]

Usagi no Blundergat

Come see how heavy it gets
I been stressed out and I’m never gone stitch
Never been able to handle this shit
Daddy neglected his girls he a bitch
Whole lotta resentment from letting it sit
I keep on talking bout’ healing that’s never gone happen and it’s not coz I’m lazy as shit
Rabbit hole this every moments a trip
I’ll never run out of rope in this bitch
Fuck out my face with religion, its just a concept that everyone else bit
They tried to convince me that another exist, but I said I am God, I’m testing they patience with this
You just gone do what everyone else did
Lie and save face til you finally switch
Standing on business because I got too much in me to quit

Aw shit

Think this is new to me huh?
You got amnesia and it ain’t fooling me huh?
Survived the abuse and tomfoolery huh?
I’m throwing hands at the weak men and breaking them brutally huh
Clasping your hands to a god that don’t answer you back is almost illusory huh?
None of yall know what to do with me huh?
I’ll never run outta futility huh?
That kinda rejections what’s fueling me huh?

Aw shit

Death in this section was present, we prepping for war so we better equipped
I got an army of demons inside of my head they hit paranoia with truth bullets that’s never gone miss
Prepping with all disrespect ain’t no human that can step to my clique
Watch your reality switch, change and start over and over again as you fail to exist

You just be lying and saying you don’t know any better
I press your ego and now you under pressure
I live in the truth and I know that I’m ruthless and that’s my endeavor
My base form is a cutesy killer, but I’m killing all of the liars forever
Whatever

 

[Ðari]

Burning (Middle) Finger

Where my bombs sit im raring to gettem lit
See my palms quick combustion with each hit

These explosives they set in motion
Promotions im running potent
Proposals done in the moment
Corrosive has been your focus

I'm toxic bitch, middle fingers up
Flip the switch as I call your bluff
Look me in the eyes bitch you ain't got the stuff
Powder puffs, finger twirling til yall had enough

Think you had it rough, crashing out for acting tough
Since day one I said I'd fuck you cowards up
These hands have buried bodies in a couple scuffs
Better seal it up, gold the silence before I tear it up